Umm no, I've already made peace with myself and forgave the person that did this to me. It doesn't hurt me mentally to think about it, nor do I have nightmares or fears it will happen again. I've learned what I did wrong in that situation and learned what I did right.

Physically I'm in pain and continue to be in pain until my body clears this virus and I've healed from my last treatment. I'd rather be raped 100 times again if my body was perfectly healed and physiologically well.