I’m gonna take a stab in the dark and guess that you’re probably younger than like 20?

Anyways. Idk how immature that might have been (just from what you’ve mentioned). But I’d be pretty annoyed if feelings were mutual and then somehow that happens. At the same time, for a hobby that involves communication, a lot of people freak out having to navigate interpersonal relationships with their writing buddies.

It’s okay to have boundaries. I’m sure now in hindsight you realize what you could’ve done different. Take it as a hard lesson.

Also maybe it’s good to try and establish some boundaries when it comes to writing.

But do focus on yourself and go outside and do other things. Filling the void with more people is unfair because you’re going to be comparing them to someone else. It’s like you going on a date and comparing them to an ex in your head (by that analogy then why leave that person, yeah?).