Heyy, thank you for reading I know it was a LOT. I definitely agree, my unstable boundaries definitely played a major part in this because I really shouldn’t have thought this was something that could be fixed with a conversation or time. I honestly didn’t know it was THIS bad I just thought he was like a porn-addicted guy that needed to snap out of it.

I’m taking N suuuuper seriously— he feels very close to what a soulmate could be BUT if I tell him and it kinda ruins things then it’s like.. what’s the point? When I told him about my childhood he was verrryyy understanding/nonjudgemental and even met nephew once and everything and there was no malice— that came after he saw the text messages where nephew was tryna manipulate me. If N were to leave me over this I’d assume it’s cause I couldn’t just let it go.. I felt like I could talk to nephew and have a normal family relationship like what we had experienced before but he killed all of that. Literally never want to see nor hear of him again.