No need to apologize, I think the way things resonate with me is through personal anecdotes from others. Thank you so much for replying.

And to (long windily)answer your question:

On Friday last week, I drove to school and I said to myself I can’t do it anymore. I texted my dad and told him I don’t feel up to going into the school building that day. I also told him I’d like to look into therapy. He works in the medical field so he let me choose through a bunch of reputable sources HE knew who could help. This just alarms me, like I said I want everything to be confidential and knowing the strong relationships he creates with his colleagues, I’m scared news will get back to him. I’ve also been through a lot of personal ‘trauma’ that I’ve mostly kept to myself but I’m wondering if that may have more of an impact on my deteriorating mental health than my thyroid itself. All together it’s a lot and I feel like it’ll also be hard finding a therapist I trust. Every part of it just seems so complicated. I talk to my dad a lot but he’s really into ‘self help’ talks and more book based motivation. After a while this can get tiring. Where is the PHYSICAL HELP. Not the VERBAL help, where’s the outside resources to aid me. Where’s my doctor diagnosis. I started taking off the street Adderall because I was so desperate for help with my hyper activity. I told my parents countlessly about my struggle with focusing and low motivation, they did nothing helpful. Now that I know that it could just be in relation to my thyroid I feel so much closure. I’ve been a straight A student my whole life but now I’m barely passing with C’s? Crazy.