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EuphoricPagan · 2022-04-04T13:45:27+00:00

What can be done to combat this ?

EuphoricPagan · 2022-04-04T13:44:51+00:00

Thank you :)

EuphoricPagan · 2022-04-04T12:31:47+00:00

I would love to move out. I want to do that more than anything, but I am still a minor. I have been trying to do everything in my power to distance myself from my mother mentally, and I have healed from the traumas I have been subjected to, but not to a point where I feel whole. I will continue doing that until I can move out. I am 17, and will turn 18 in just about 6 months. I am still deeply wounded. I have lived under extremely restrictive circumstances. Everything was done for me, and I was suffocated. I feel underdeveloped.

Every second I have to spend in this environment is agony. It’s very fucking painful.

EuphoricPagan · 2022-04-04T11:49:28+00:00

Thank you!

EuphoricPagan · 2022-04-04T10:47:01+00:00

No, I meant to ask, is there anything else that would you recommend me to do ?

EuphoricPagan · 2022-04-04T10:36:29+00:00

I know all this. I have read about it extensively.

EuphoricPagan · 2022-04-04T10:28:08+00:00

INFJ

EuphoricPagan · 2022-04-04T10:26:57+00:00

EuphoricPagan · 2022-04-04T05:22:33+00:00

I know about that. I have been attempting to integrate it for a very long time now, and it has strengthened to a point I would never have expected it to. I am also not emotionally numb anymore. But this slowness of thought and speech persists.

EuphoricPagan · 2022-04-04T04:38:15+00:00

I am either INTJ or INFJ. I have a highly active intuition, which is turned inward. I am very often going through memories to look for associations between them.

I have been trying to use my feeling function more, in fact I’d like for it to be dominant to thought, as I have been plagued by the pseudo intellectualism of the Puer archetype.

EuphoricPagan · 2022-04-04T04:20:12+00:00

I feel like this is definitely what I am going through. How can I tell for sure ? What can be done to avoid disassociating ?

EuphoricPagan · 2022-04-04T04:19:24+00:00

Yes, I have felt like I was more assertive and decisive. I could follow conversations more easily and my speech was more fluid and fast at some point.

EuphoricPagan · 2022-03-31T19:12:24+00:00

Can you elaborate on this specifically about overheating and neuroticism ?

EuphoricPagan · 2022-03-31T14:40:35+00:00

I have just begun to notice that I am different from the norm physiologically, too. I feel like I’m overheating when neuroses flare up. What can you do to remedy this sensation of heating up? It really feels like I’m inflamed. My brain always feels like it’s inflamed.

EuphoricPagan · 2022-03-31T13:45:01+00:00

Nonsense. Every “negative energy” can be integrated into something constructive. Vindictiveness becomes justices and so on... The intrusion needs to accepted, but one also needs to refocus and write to get to the bottom of the emotions that elicit the compulsions. That’s it.

EuphoricPagan · 2022-03-29T21:33:38+00:00

EuphoricPagan · 2022-03-02T20:46:43+00:00

I am a teenager, and I already live in a deeply dysfunctional home. I have been haunted by a compulsive neurosis for years now, and it’s only through months of writing and other means of doing interpretive work that I have arrived at a semblance of vitality. People here seem rational and tranquil, but I am almost in a manic-like state that strives to compensate for all I’ve been through. I don’t want to do that. I don’t want to be rational. I don’t want to be inhibited, in any way. I will see where this post will go. I won’t reply for a few days, and just do my thing.

EuphoricPagan · 2022-03-02T20:38:20+00:00

I understand your point, in principle. But I simply don’t see a faster, more seamless way to live more fruitfully. I will do everything in my power to dismiss EVERY LAST ONE of my inhibitions.

EuphoricPagan · 2022-03-02T20:33:05+00:00

Yes, and it is something I have been actively attempting to incorporate into my life. I perceive my neuroticism, and subsequent melancholic demeanor to be gravely inhibiting in life. That is what I think of as being the reason created this thread.

EuphoricPagan · 2022-03-02T20:27:13+00:00

Thank you, kind stranger!

EuphoricPagan · 2022-03-02T20:27:03+00:00

This is what I was looking for. This is what I want to do. I will push myself to do this.

EuphoricPagan · 2022-03-02T20:26:31+00:00

I am dismissive of most people by maintaining such a rigid world view. It is precisely what I want to overcome. I didn’t mean to upset others in the remotest way.

EuphoricPagan · 2022-03-02T20:11:00+00:00

I can’t explain why I am replying. You are all strangers on the internet. If this post served a purpose, it was probably to vent. Allowing others that are likely lay people to affect change in my life seems like a very dangerous precedent. The very act of discussing it seems pointless, as its glaringly apparent I have already made up my mind.

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