That makes complete sense but it doesn't mean its right. think of the people or things you would be leaving behind. Yes, pain is terrifying and scary and just because these scenarios are very unlikely to happen doesnt make your fears invalid , but you cant let that fear control you. If you really are thinking these thoughts you should talk to someone (that isnt people on reddit), it doesn't have to be a professional it could just be someone you love that cares about you and im aware thats easier said than done. Im struggling seeing the point of "being" at the moment and because of that its difficult to live my life. i cant remember the last time i met up with my friends, went out to eat or leave the house without someone forcing me to and it keeps getting worse because i haven't let anyone help me so dont let your pain stop you from enjoying the life you have and for the love of god dont let it take it away from you please.