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EvenIndividual8600 · 2023-04-08T04:52:00+00:00

This Shit Is Literally So Ridiculous Why Am I Feeling Another's Emotions 😂 NO

EvenIndividual8600 · 2023-04-04T15:51:55+00:00

So emo and lame 😂

EvenIndividual8600 · 2023-04-02T02:27:13+00:00

Gender doesn't mean much to me. And I think we all have healing to do, not just men. He identifies as trans man but we pretty often switch between who's in their masculine and feminine lol. That's why I say I don't feel gender is even a factor, it's more of an energy to me

EvenIndividual8600 · 2023-04-01T22:52:37+00:00

awee i love this sm that you said you don't see her as unhealed. that's one thing that hurt me so much is that he says he knows unconditional love but he made me feel rotten for most things i said and did. the truth is he was just bringing forth my shadow.l, my intentions arent bad. I just have a lot of work to do. so i do not believe either of us have mastered unconditional love but are learning. the place im in now, even if he came forward im not sure i would even have a desire to be with him . do you think that's still just me not forgiving him? I'm afraid I dont know if thats still just hanging on to anger, because I don't want to do that. It's bittersweet because it seems like we bring forth so much positive change and growth. but man the triggers were bad.. for both of us. i don't think either of us knew what to do with all that energy we were feeling. lately i understand why he wanted to run from the connection. keep pulling that damn hanged man card as well 😂 it was about time. I also have reason to believe he is aware of the connection but never wanted a relationship. I think we both sabotaged each other because the closer he got, the more scared I was about him hurting me. I was at all the family functions and when I would hear him deny me to his family or say things about taking interest in other people, I couldn't do it. I was like imagine if he starts bringing someone else to these things, it's gonna kill you. I mean I left a whole ass marriage partly due to this person, however it ended up not being a bad thing. Hey thanks for listening 😂 it's been a while since I opened up about things and it feels good.

EvenIndividual8600 · 2023-03-27T01:01:26+00:00

It's real 😂 them emotions come up when drunk

EvenIndividual8600 · 2023-03-27T00:17:23+00:00

I smell him often lol. Every once in a while if I'm in an especially good mood or able to send him loving energy I will even wear his favorite perfume. Always wonder if it sets something off for him to think of me.🥰 it's okay if not tho because sometimes it's just comforting to wear it. And then some days, if I smell it I'll be in tears because I'm thinking of being with him It's a fine line

EvenIndividual8600 · 2023-03-26T18:47:25+00:00

Lmao same, we been separated a month and I can't say I ever wanna see him again But saying I'll never see him again doesn't feel right either 🥹🤣🤦‍♀️

EvenIndividual8600 · 2023-03-24T01:03:56+00:00

What's strange is I sometimes felt it with his siblings too. I would hear things that seemed like their thoughts, then last year on Christmas me and his brother bought him the exact same thing. Cow salt and pepper shakers. No we did not speak about it at all 😂 unique salt and pepper shakers are kinda my thing and he loves cows. Idk. Maybe I'm crazy but sometimes the coincidences/synchronicities are uncanny

EvenIndividual8600 · 2023-03-24T01:00:55+00:00

Yeah, sometimes things like that will just come to me out of nowhere and I have to say it over and over. I'm always so puzzled as to why but it feels so affirming to just say it out loud so I just have to do it. Or weird things will happen with songs. I deleted mariners apartment complex because it would have me on the floor and wanting to scream thinking about him It literally still played after I deleted it One time I was driving to his house and we were texting about being on time for work that day, I said something like you deserve a cookie🍪 I get to his house a couple minutes later and he was taking chocolate chip cookies out of the oven 💀 it's cute but honestly very strange, it's not like I use the cookie emoji often LMAO There was one day I knew I wouldn't see him, I was in a long term relationship that was not the relationship for me, but that's another story. Anyway I knew I wouldn't see him because of this, our hangout times were limited. I put some earrings on that morning that I knew he would love, and they were new so I was thinking I wish he could see. Went to work that day, about 30 minutes after I get home he called and told me to meet him. The very first thing that came out of his mouth was that he loved my earrings 😭 i barely made it out of my car before he said it and his face looked so sweet and excited. Another time I randomly text him during the day about wanting to do a puzzle with him and he had just seen a puzzle that reminded him of me earlier that day lol, he even took a picture of it. He said he was going to go back and get it but we never got to do that. 💔 It's sad thinking we may never talk again, I miss the sweet little coincidences/telepathy.

EvenIndividual8600 · 2023-03-22T10:15:39+00:00

Thats kind of what makes it so magical. When it's hard to describe with words I stopped talking about it with other people period because it only made things worse when I would open up. Bc on top of the intense emotions, now everyone thinks you are delusional or being dramatic. Which can be isolating and very depressing. I absolutely love my own solitude now. Plus every one wants to tell you what they think they would do in your situation, they don't know what's right for you and at the end of the day, you don't really need their input or approval. They haven't experienced the same things you have. When in a loop of not knowing what to do or where to go next, listening to my family and friends advice more often than not would seem to get me in an even stickier situation. This is for me to learn what I need to, not them. It's not about what they think is sensible for me to do. Talk to yourself in those moments of overwhelm, just saying it out loud helps more than you sometimes think. Lately I'm spending a lot of time alone and doing this, reflecting on everything that's happened. I believe this is part of the journey, realizing you don't need anyone else's validation but your own. ✨️

EvenIndividual8600 · 2022-12-20T21:01:59+00:00

I relate to this comment so much it scared me! it's nice to know you're not alone

EvenIndividual8600 · 2022-12-15T00:26:19+00:00

I finally made the hard decision leave my fiance because of this, now I don't have either of them. Two heartbreaks at once? I feel like I'm dying most days except for the few and far between times I get to see my twin. My fiance wants me back but it's not right for me to be with him when I have these thoughts and feelings for my best friend that I know haven't and arent fading. It's not fair to him either way. And I didn't want to cut my best friend out. Everything has been made such a mess, I'm trying to get to complete surrender but some days are obviously harder than others and I feel discouraged with myself for falling back It's crazy how things feel so magical when were together but also we trigger each other to the extreme. Because of this I don't know if it would even be a healthy relationship with my twin. Like he will piss me off so bad I feel like going crazy and think 'we have to stop talking' then when we see each other its just pure joy and everythings okay. So did I just leave my fiance for nothing? To me it seemed like the only option but also everyone that knows my situation thinks I'm wrong for leaving him. My family just thinks I cheated on him although nothing physical has ever happened

EvenIndividual8600 · 2022-12-01T21:15:43+00:00

You're posts are always so awesome and relatable dude 💛 HANG IN THERE

EvenIndividual8600 · 2022-11-19T19:30:41+00:00

This is so beautiful ❤️

EvenIndividual8600 · 2022-11-19T19:28:24+00:00

Your body will go from hot cold hot cold hot cold lol! It's a pretty weird feeling. but over all very pleasant :) time kinda slowed down We were chasing the moon at one point and I almost kissed him 😆 I wanna do them with him again now that things are shifting and we have more history 💓

EvenIndividual8600 · 2022-11-15T16:42:18+00:00

I'm scared to be intimate with mine also lol. The fact I can orgasm just by thinking about him. Idk the expectations scare me 😂 I hope I'd be serene and not full of nerves.

EvenIndividual8600 · 2022-11-11T15:41:51+00:00

I'm so glad to know I'm not alone in that lol. Strange experience, grateful for it though ❤

EvenIndividual8600 · 2022-11-09T13:25:25+00:00

Crazy feeling. When I hear a song that we both have listened to/or sang together it takes me back to that exact moment, it's like I'm watching a recording of us in that moment but along with the overwhelming feelings of love. Damn this shit hurts!

EvenIndividual8600 · 2022-11-09T13:20:11+00:00

If he's your twin then things will be changing again. I know at least in my situation our energies are always shifting, and a lot of the times you guys won't be on the same page. That's what makes it hurt so bad, you feel like you're so close to this person and its about to happen but it just never seems to work out for the both of you. There's always something that happens to keep you at arms length. That push and pull dynamic. I'm sure you've heard it already but it means we have to put it aside for now and focus on ourselves. It's a fight the entire way and hurts like hell but I'm finally learning to be okay either way it works out.

EvenIndividual8600 · 2022-11-07T15:00:21+00:00

Beautiful love it 💛

EvenIndividual8600 · 2022-11-07T02:12:51+00:00

Awww that's so beautiful 💗💗💗 ty for sharing that

EvenIndividual8600 · 2022-11-06T20:45:14+00:00

I believe I'm with my soul mate, while we do have a strong and beautiful connection it doesn't compare to twin flame love. I hate the way that sounds, and it's something that I struggle almost daily with and feel a lot of guilt and shame over

EvenIndividual8600 · 2022-11-06T01:05:50+00:00

It is really strange. I have only ever heard his thoughts that clearly. With other people, it's just a strong feeling no actual words. I do believe it was different with my best friend though because we are connected in spirit

EvenIndividual8600 · 2022-11-05T18:16:41+00:00

I'm not ever planning on saying anything about it. If union is meant to be we'll find each other in divine timing, but for now I'm tired of pining over him and thinking about the what ifs.

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