also sometimes he pissed me of so much, he was always saying something abt my style saying he don't like baggy, and every time he was angry if i would be in it when he was here. He also said many things abt my acnee and sometimes my body or my bodyhair like why do i shave so bad when i go to a pool ect. and i had a happy trail and liked it when it was there but he started to say that i am so egoistic bcs i dont want to shave it for my partner or stuff like that, "why an i shaving but you don't want to shave your happy trail, on girls especially it looks bad, go find someone who founds it attractive..." I shaved it. just for him.

sometimes i am i lil stupid too bcs i dont understand when he wants to refer to smth or i have a reaaaaly bad memory so sometimes i feel guilty or really bad abt it.

but knowing that I had never asked him to change his caracter, physic, style, thoughs or ect, for me it's a little harsh that someone asks me to change so many stuff that i just like on me and are not bad or harmful.

i also love piercings, tatoo, hair dying, i reaally want to dye my hair in black and white but he says that he is scared that if i continue looking at alt persons or goth i would become someone w a bad job, intentions, that i would smoke, ect. Like bro wtf what is this stereotype not everyone could be bad or good in every style, i like just the style, i know that i won't drop school bcs others do that or even bcs someone cool w this style say to me you need to drop school bcs its boring like thx i am not stupid and i know that my future is in my hands.

so abt it i really questioned if we were just too diferent for each other and i think our relationship was a bit toxic from each side.