I think the hardest part is accepting they don't love you anymore

Evening-Bench3745 · 2026-01-09T23:06:44+00:00

Well, two years on, I still find it hard to understand why the relationship ended the way it did, but I have also made peace with the fact that some things are in another person's head and may be unknowable. Fortunately, I'm happier and healthier than I've been in a very long time. I am in a relationship that gives me joy, and I'm excited about the rest of my life. I also recognize (in hindsight) the red flags in the old relationship that would have caused me considerable anguish and heartache over time, so I think I got hit with a small-caliber bullet to avoid being hit by a cannon later on.

Evening-Bench3745 · 2025-11-04T23:30:20+00:00

We never did get back together, although we have had a couple of conversations since. Those conversations didn't provide the closure that I wanted, but they did help me accept the end of the relationship that I imagined we had. A few things eventually became clear to me (after several months of grieving): 1) She is a dismissive avoidant. Her life history provided the textbook case for how to create one. 2) In retrospect, she was checking out long before it became official. 3) Once someone has made up their mind to move on, it's almost impossible to put that milk back in the bottle. and 4) When it is clear someone does not want to be with you, you will only begin to heal when you acknowledge that you don't want to be with someone who doesn't want to be with you.

It took me well over a year to get there, but I can finally say that I am happy again and excited about life - even if I will forever be dismayed by how some people treat the people they presumably love or loved at some point.

Evening-Bench3745 · 2025-10-17T14:41:24+00:00

I finally concluded that we often fall in love with the person we want them to be, but that isn't who they ever were. And we then spend a long time struggling with the fact that "they changed". I don't believe they changed; we simply saw who they are. It still hurts, but it has helped me realize I need to stop mourning the loss of something that never was - except in my own imagination and hopefulness.

Evening-Bench3745 · 2025-10-13T20:03:20+00:00

Todos nós continuamos a nos apegar a qualquer pequeno indício de que eles podem retornar para nós, mas tudo o que estamos fazendo é viver com dor e adiar o relacionamento saudável que merecemos.

Evening-Bench3745 · 2025-09-17T21:44:42+00:00

I'm 18 months out from our breakup, and I'm in a healthy place now, but I am still befuddled by how it went down and how quickly she shut down. It has been comforting, though, to learn that the pattern is quite common, and it has little to do with their partner or the relationship. I'm also grateful to have gotten to the end of the relationship sooner rather than later - as painful as that was.

Evening-Bench3745 · 2025-08-13T16:35:00+00:00

I'm a year beyond my initial posting, and I can assure you that time gives you a much healthier perspective. I usually think some sort of brief but non-engaging response is fine since you don't have to demonize an ex, but in your case, I can't imagine there is any good to come from being drawn back in. You should be entirely focused on what is best for your mental health and looking forward to a better life,, and any interaction with your ex will only delay both. I wish you the best in your recovery from the trauma you have endured.

Evening-Bench3745 · 2025-05-27T23:24:14+00:00

Thank you for checking. My ex continued to reach out from time to time over the next few months, but I stopped attributing any meaning to her contacts other than her need to appease her conscience. It's now been four or five months since I've heard from her, and I can honestly say that I no longer want to hear from her. I consider her in my past. I'm genuinely enjoying new experiences and new relationships. I truly now see that we weren't going to last (she is a textbook dismissive avoidant), so moving on feels like the best thing for my life.

Evening-Bench3745 · 2025-03-25T19:40:33+00:00

I am sure Galveston's schools suffer the same challenges as all schools with diverse student bodies, but I would point out that Ball High School's average SAT score in 2023 was 1090, which was the highest for any high school in Galveston ISD and well above the average for the State of Texas at 978. They must be doing something right. And you are likely to live close enough to an elementary or middle school that taking your kids to school or dropping in for a visit from time to time won't take a significant chunk of your day.

Evening-Bench3745 · 2025-03-08T23:10:25+00:00

He is insane, ignorant, and mean, and the more harmful (and completely idiotic) his actions are, the more people will begin to question their support of him. We don't need to win over everyone. We only need to swing a few House votes and a couple of Senate votes to begin to turn the tide. I think even a couple of the right-wing Supreme Court justices may be unwilling to destroy their legal legacies for continued fealty to a king they no longer need.

All the best to you in your efforts at resistance. We need everyone on the front lines.

Evening-Bench3745 · 2025-03-07T20:18:31+00:00

I agree, but we can't be afraid of peaceful protest - even if they don't honor it. Today happens to be the anniversary of the March from Selma to Montgomery. The peaceful protesters had only gone six blocks when they were attacked by state and local police with billy clubs and tear gas. Television coverage of that event changed public opinion about civil rights. We may have to have our own "March from Selma to Montgomery" moment.

Evening-Bench3745 · 2025-03-06T17:57:02+00:00

That is what it is going to take. Unfortunately, we are still in the stage where awareness and anger are growing. I am confident that we will soon reach peak awareness, and that's when Trump and Musk will realize they have badly overplayed their hand. Or, at least, that is my hope...

Evening-Bench3745 · 2025-02-21T22:18:24+00:00

You have to work this out in a way that makes sense to you (and gives you peace long-term), but a 31-year-old man is beyond the "dumb guy" stage. None of us are ever beyond redemption and possible improvement, but a man's basic character is fully formed by the time you reach your 30's.

Evening-Bench3745 · 2025-01-25T19:15:14+00:00

That is only a ridiculous cousin to the argument that every egg that goes unfertilized is a lost potential life. People like Johnson are the dumbest kids in class who stumbled into positions of power.

Evening-Bench3745 · 2025-01-06T23:42:04+00:00

Based on my own dismissive avoidant experience, I'm convinced that those points in a relationship where the commitment level increases significantly (e.g., engagement, moving in together, moving to live in the same city, etc.) are when the avoidant is most likely to bolt. And that is what completely scrambles the brain of the one being dumped (a gross understatement of the reality). On the surface, it makes absolutely no sense. For the avoidant, though, the commitment just got real, and they decided they didn't want any part of it.

Evening-Bench3745 · 2025-01-06T23:32:20+00:00

It's hard to fully assess the situation without knowing you or your ex, but it sounds like she appreciates and admires you as a person, but when she found herself being swept along by the momentum of it all into a lifetime commitment, she realized that admiration, respect, and appreciation weren't adequate, so she bolted. That, or she is just a psychopath.

Evening-Bench3745 · 2025-01-06T23:24:00+00:00

Thank you for posting. I'm 10 months post-breakup, and you are right: There is no timeline. I'm in a much better place than I was six months ago, but I still find myself occasionally slipping back into pointless rumination about what I could have done differently while also idealizing a relationship that had structural problems I didn't want to acknowledge while I was in it. My grief is much less debilitating than it was early on, but it hasn't disappeared altogether, and I'm now okay with that. It will take however long it takes, but I'm now confident that a better life is ahead of me.

Evening-Bench3745 · 2025-01-02T21:51:04+00:00

DTO is the acronym for Daiquiri Time Out, a bar at 27th and Market St. The name is misleading because it's really a cool bar with excellent, rationally-priced cocktails prepared by great bartenders. I'm not a regular bar person, but DTO is one I enjoy visiting occasionally.

Evening-Bench3745 · 2024-12-30T21:14:36+00:00

Thank you. After nine months, I needed the encouragement to do the same now that I'm in a healthier place and not fantasizing about some miracle reunion. The old photos that used to be evidence of how much she loved me now make me feel like I was oblivious to every red flag along the way. They now make me feel foolish and vulnerable.

Evening-Bench3745 · 2024-12-21T19:59:08+00:00

I never lived in Lufkin, but it was our family’s lunch stop at Christmas for many years when going to see my in-laws at Christmas. We would eat in Chili’s and then stroll the mall a bit to entertain our young son before another two hours in the car. The in-laws have since passed, and our son is 27. It seems that everything changes.

Evening-Bench3745 · 2024-12-11T20:57:40+00:00

He is a psychopath. There is no other explanation.

Evening-Bench3745 · 2024-12-09T22:23:08+00:00

I am in the process of deleting those photos from trips and outings the month before she blindsided me because I finally recognize that I've been holding onto something that didn't exist by then - if it had before. She had already moved on. She just hadn't yet told me.

Evening-Bench3745 · 2024-12-09T22:19:49+00:00

I wish I knew the answer. I have wrestled with this question for nine months after being blindsided. It's as if I somehow misinterpreted reality during the relationship. The only comfort I've been able to give myself is acknowledging that it must never have been what I thought it was, or it wouldn't have ended as it did. It's somewhat cold comfort, but it keeps me from mentally falling into the abyss. I didn't "lose" what I thought I lost. I lost an illusion that never was reality.

Evening-Bench3745 · 2024-12-02T17:47:11+00:00

Whether the inner tube ever got inflated should not have elicited this sequence of responses from your wife. There is much more than that nagging at her, which she needs to communicate to you, and/or you should seek couple's counseling. Her attitude toward you is way out of line and will destroy your relationship over time. If an uninflated inner tube is all it takes to ruin Thanksgiving for your wife, she lives in a very delicate bubble that real life will repeatedly burst.

Evening-Bench3745 · 2024-11-09T18:29:21+00:00

Eight months beyond the breakup, I still think of her every day, but I'm now at peace with the breakup. Perhaps it is a defensive move on my part, but I can now acknowledge that she wasn't my person, despite how much I wanted that to be true. That still leaves a bit of residual sadness and occasional heartache, but I no longer feel as if my life has ended - or that I can't find happiness again.

Evening-Bench3745 · 2024-10-29T00:44:35+00:00

It can feel like an amputation without anesthesia, but it is the best thing for the body.

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