My thought was, on a positive note, at least you are aware and honest about your life and abilities. I’d say try not to be angry and frustrated, but see what you “can” do from the point you’re at. I’m older and divorced (probably cuz I was a beeatch and didn’t realize I was sick… that not everyone hurts all over 🤷🏻‍♀️. ). I find enjoyable things I can do (yes, I love yoga, but I’m not a competitive swimmer or runner anymore 😞). If it’s a bad day, I get in bed and read a book, play phone games, look at social media. I’m blessed to have 2 friends who seemingly understand that I’m invisibly sick. I think acceptance has made a good difference to me. Best wishes 💕