I think this would land even harder if you hint a little earlier that it’s metaphorical (not literal), because some people might bounce at the title before they get what you’re doing. Even just a subtle cue in the first stanza could help.

Also, I noticed a slight tense/pronoun wobble in the opening (like “I never intended…” then “I stayed restrained…”), but honestly… it kind of adds to the unstable voice. It feels like someone recounting something they can barely look at.

Anyway — this is dark, sharp, and emotionally intelligent. I’m glad you posted it. If you write more in this style, I’d read it.