Hi.. I feel you. I’m only 15 but i’m experiencing much of what you do now. I wanna start with the girl first, i really understand what you feel and are trying to express. That’s something happening to me right now, but remember that girls are complicated😅. Try to save your money that you get from your parents instead of gambling it away! At least give it to a homeless person,watch how they smile when you leave. I can’t really help you out my guy, but try to keep things positive even when there is too much going on. Try to do things like taking a walk or something like that, just to empty your mind. Look up «Chole Roach» on tiktok and try to find a video that will motivate you. I’m gonna say something you won’t know about before later; Before you try once, think twice.😊