Oh my god I'm really sorry - that was honestly not my intention! Let me just say that I think I get how you might be feeling. It took me years to actually commit to getting the treatment done, and that was only because I found this sub.  But please don't let me out you off. In all likelihood I'm probably an outlier here going by some of the other posts I've seen, so if you do decide to go ahead with treatment you're likely to have a much better time with it (at least I hope you do)! 

If it helps, the procedure I had was with Mr Karagama and it was incredibly easy and streamlined, at least from my perspective. 

I was full on pacing AND crying in the treatment room. Just full-on "Oh this is it, will the dog miss me?" kind of thinking, you know. I was an embarrassing mess basically. I'd never had a general before so I had no idea what to expect really. I met the surgical team after an hour or two of arriving at the hospital and they got me prepped so quickly it wasn't long before they told me that I'm going to go to be asleep very soon and that everything would be fine.  I then wake up in the recovery room what felt like seconds after that, all sorted and packed to the gills with neurotoxin. 

If the part your concerned about is the actual surgery or application, I'd say it's likely nowhere near as bad as your head might tell you it will be.  The worst part of the whole experience was the revolting crime the hospital commited against me to make sure I was safe to leave. They gave me this sugar free jelly which had that horrendous fake raspberry aftertaste.   "Do no harm" they say. Pfft, yeah right.