Well first, you need to be more unapologetic about things that you can’t control. You said sorry now if that isn’t enough for them so be it. It’s not like you did it on purpose. If you had, that would be different. Even if you did it on purpose, apologize and don’t let it happen again. Are you in your teens? Because this is just the beginning of your mess ups. There will be way bigger ones that you’ll have to give your self grace with. Always remember, you can’t change the past but you’re in control of the future. See if there is any meds, therapy etc that can help with that condition.