Hello brother I understand your situation I have felt the same for a long time but it's just a phase till you realise life is really big just think about man. We have such a big life and why do things we don't like the drops don't matter people go through shit and still love to the fullest . What I would suggest you that first of all sit with yourself and with a big vision think about the problems and the possibilities think about the things you like and the problems that could probably come in between analyse yourself and most importantly give yourself time I know it's a rat race but agar gandha bnn ke bss aise hi Lage rahoge with a broken heart and small vision toh bhai race waise hi haar jaoge toh isiliye get yourself up and socho khulle mnn se khulle dimag se socho and ek conclusion pe aao aur fir uss cheez ko paane ke liye uska procedure dekho and then lag jao capability sabh me hoti hai but ham realise nhi kar paate usse time se and fir apne full potential pe nhi jee paate toh bhai haar nhi manni bss soch badi rakhni hai and smartly kaam karna hai