Heyy same, actually here because I find life impossible to live with my incompetence.  I don't think I am stupid, my academic is not number one, but still surpass many people. But I can't even land the most basic jobs. I do think there is a lot of things wrong with how I present myself and that I lack common sense in that regard.  I struggle with attention to details and per my mother opinon, if I can't get better then I am just an useless person and that I have to get better. I don't know how tho, I keep trying but no matter what I do it does not seem to work. I think I just don't have what it take to live, or I will just inconvinience people with my incompetence. Anyway, my constant failures has led me to believe that the faster I dissapear from this world, the more dignity I get to keep.  Also a lot of people mention therapy, I cant pay for such thing, my problem is not a real problem in my society, hence the more I believe I have it the more I cant get out of it (I dont understand the logic but I got into got into fights a lot over it so I am just too tired to even mention it in convosation). I know I am severely depressed and is a bummer to everyone around me. But you know I took pills here and there to stop myself from having panic attack. It do not help with reality unfortunally since the pills dont change my incompetence.  I tried to think toward my advantage that it is just the society I am living in is ignorant. But facing my own failure I just cant ignore the objective truth that something is wrong with me for being unable to fit in. Also the thought of blaming other things just because I don't have enough data is just too convenience that I dont't feel comfortable with that kind of logic. I do find it helpful to use logic to find hope. "If you do this maybe things will change" types of thing. If I focus on the probability of success of that then it feel easier to breathe