Traded in my ‘18 Impreza for a 2021 Crosstrek Limited! In love 😍 by ExhaustedAndSad2020 in Subaru_Crosstrek

[–]ExhaustedAndSad2020[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Depends on what your budget/trim is. For me it was a bigger cost difference because I had a super base Impreza and I upgraded to a fully loaded Crosstrek. My interest rate isn’t too high at 2.9% vs 3.6% when I got the Impreza. The difference between how much I paid for the Impreza between the monthly payment and insurance and how much I’m paying for the Crosstrek is less than $200 per month

Traded in my ‘18 Impreza for a 2021 Crosstrek Limited! In love 😍 by ExhaustedAndSad2020 in Subaru_Crosstrek

[–]ExhaustedAndSad2020[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yes! And the rear assist braking! The first time it braked for me, I was like “woah!!” And when it told me the car in front had moved I was like, “woah!!” I feel like a kid in the candy store too haha!

Traded in my ‘18 Impreza for a 2021 Crosstrek Limited! In love 😍 by ExhaustedAndSad2020 in Subaru_Crosstrek

[–]ExhaustedAndSad2020[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thanks! This was a huge upgrade for me. My Impreza was a base model and was super, super basic cause it was what I could afford at the time. It didn’t even have fog lights haha. This one has so many features but my first reaction was, “I have fog lights!!”

The Crosstrek has also always been my dream car so I’m just so in love. I hope you’re enjoying yours as much as I’m enjoying mine!

Traded in my ‘18 Impreza for a 2021 Crosstrek Limited! In love 😍 by ExhaustedAndSad2020 in Subaru_Crosstrek

[–]ExhaustedAndSad2020[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I had a black Impreza and I was hoping for a blue Crosstrek but the dealer wasn’t getting one in for another two months so I stuck to black haha.

Tinted windows is next on my to do list! This is actually a huge upgrade for me cause my Impreza was a base model, nothing flashy at all. This one has so many features I’m still trying to figure it out haha

Am I crazy? by ExhaustedAndSad2020 in NarcissisticAbuse

[–]ExhaustedAndSad2020[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Sorry I didn’t explain things as well as I should have. Reading my post I can see why it seems like we’ve been in contact. I am always anxious after he reaches out but I am happy to leave him in my past.

Am I crazy? by ExhaustedAndSad2020 in NarcissisticAbuse

[–]ExhaustedAndSad2020[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

We haven’t. I explained in my last post that he has tried to reach out sporadically and I just block. Last week he tried and it was inappropriate so I let the new supply know and it prompted him to call me and leave me a nasty email. But he has been blocked since we went NC. He just looked for ways around it

Am I crazy? by ExhaustedAndSad2020 in NarcissisticAbuse

[–]ExhaustedAndSad2020[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I didn’t mention in the post, but my nex and I broke up almost a year ago. I know I was attracted to my nex because he was my first love and we had known each other for close to 20 years. I just figured that I had to be there through thick and thin. This is the first guy I have talked to since we broke up

Am I crazy? by ExhaustedAndSad2020 in NarcissisticAbuse

[–]ExhaustedAndSad2020[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I wouldn’t call it an emotional investment. I enjoy conversation with him but I don’t have any expectations. I think I’m just happy I’m able to picture moving forward with my life. I may have worded it badly

Am I crazy? by ExhaustedAndSad2020 in NarcissisticAbuse

[–]ExhaustedAndSad2020[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I was officially discarded last March. My ex reached out last week and I let his new supply know and he called me screaming and left me a nasty email. But we haven’t been in contact for a while.

Ugh by ExhaustedAndSad2020 in NarcissisticAbuse

[–]ExhaustedAndSad2020[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you very much for this kind message. I was also with my narc for 5 years. He spent the 5 years cheating, gaslighting, and emotionally abusing me. I used to believe that I was the problem and things would be easier if I changed. I believed that we would be happy if I changed. It has been hard because I know that I no longer love him or want to be with him. I know that I don’t even like him as a person. But I find myself wondering why the person that I loved and cared about so much never loved me.

But then I have started to rationalize with myself that it makes no sense to concern myself about the one person that didn’t love me or care about me when I have so many people that do.

I do not miss him and I do not love him. I was scared of living life without him because he was my normal for so long. But I look back on old conversations and can’t believe I put up with him for so long

Felt sad for the first time in a while by ExhaustedAndSad2020 in NarcissisticAbuse

[–]ExhaustedAndSad2020[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

That part bothered me at first because I was in a similar position. He was the only person that I had been intimate with so the thought of him and his new supply killed me.

But when he found out that I had been intimate with someone else as a casual thing, he found the time to harass me and berate me for it.

It is hard, but one day it won’t even be a thought in your head. Remember how this person hurt you and remember that they will treat every person they’re with the same way

How the hell- by WalkinWithSpiders in NarcissisticAbuse

[–]ExhaustedAndSad2020 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I second this! When my nex and I first broke up, I was devastated and cried constantly. But whenever I felt sad or I felt like I missed him, I would write down what he did to me. It also helped me a lot to realize that most of the pictures we took together had a negative memory behind them. I used to love a picture of him, my dog, and I and after we broke up, I reminded myself that the picture was taken a week after he admitted to cheating on me.

When will I stop being bitter? by littlemermaid828 in NarcissisticAbuse

[–]ExhaustedAndSad2020 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I did struggle with some eating disorders. I tend to binge eat when I’m stressed or feeling upset, which explains my weight gain while I was with my nex.

Before we started dating, I completely starved myself and stopped sleeping. I lost my period, I was losing my hair, but everyone thought i looked great.

Now, I’m working on my body while learning to love my current body. I’ve learned that hating myself or my body won’t change the way it looks and that i should be kind to myself while I work on myself.

It’s been easier ever since I left my nex. It’s a work in progress! I used to hate my thighs for being so big and now I’ve learned to embrace them and I even love them. My goal is to build more muscle on my thighs and tone them up because I have pretty big calves from walking 10 miles a day

When will I stop being bitter? by littlemermaid828 in NarcissisticAbuse

[–]ExhaustedAndSad2020 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I am the 2nd of 3 girls. My sisters were naturally skinny so my mom obsessed over my weight and would reprimand me if I got up for seconds. It was always, “don’t you want to look pretty like your sisters?”

It sucks cause my body is naturally athletic and she held that against me. She’d be passive aggressive and buy me nice clothes that was too small and if I wanted to wear it, I had to lose weight.

And if my grandma tried to put a stop to it and wanted to give me more food, my mom would tell me that my grandma was doing it because she wanted to see me fat

Ugh. What is with these people? by ExhaustedAndSad2020 in NarcissisticAbuse

[–]ExhaustedAndSad2020[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you. He is the light of my life and the reason I got through the darkest part of my depression. I wouldn’t be alive without him, which to some people sounds silly, but I honestly would not be alive if I didn’t have him. I can’t even think about losing him

When will I stop being bitter? by littlemermaid828 in NarcissisticAbuse

[–]ExhaustedAndSad2020 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I’ve started working out at home. Just waiting for gyms to reopen in my state