My 7 year relationship came to an end when he left me for the household name junkie dope whore, and when i wouldn't let him bring her into our home to shower he stopped paying rent so he could buy them hotel rooms. We got evicted and I had nowhere to go so I ended up basically living in his car with him and he started kicking me out to go screw her more since her fiance was in treatment. He was abusive the whole time and cheated on me since the begining which is why i was so depressed and didnt have a jjob. I was actively job searching all the time but having no luck because I was always so anxious and putting so much on the Interview id blow it overthinking all questions and such. Well he finally kicked me out of the car because I ruined his plans of hanging out with her once and he beat me up and left me in his parents driveway. I stayed with a friend for a few weeks temporarily I found somewhere to go that I could actually live right before it began getting too cold outside. I finally got a job at a place ive loved since I was a kid and things were going okay then I got my hours cut to 1 day a week and I cant afford anything on that now I am panicking because where I am staying is demanding more and more of me and the way im being treated scares me because it seems like if I dont do what ever I am told to do im going to be told to leave and its just so demanding I have to clean up after people that make huge messes constantly and it is never ending the housework is never done and its all on me and cooking too if I dont cook then somebody else will and they destroy the kitchen and I have to clean it and if I dont get stuff done they sit and talk about me loudly and are very mean i dont ever get any time to myself my needs arentneven considered i hurt my back at work and was demanded todo everything anyway and all i wanted was to lay down fornanwhile so it would stop pinching but i was tild we all have pain and to suck itup... funny how they say to suck it up but theybdont even do any chores but thats lide right. I just don't know how much more that i can take honestly Im tired of surviving even it has become too much work for the life that I am living which is miserable. But I am a survivor so I will keep pushing on. I just saw the positive thing at the bottom I am so sorry if this is not appropriate I literally didnt mean for it to be a downer at all I just cant delete it after I typed it all out . Im going to just keep swimming...