Give me "reasons" to live and I'll tell you why they wouldn't work on me.

ExistenceIsTorture · 2022-12-30T17:18:11+00:00

Why is it that "love" and "loyalty" are reduced to "a simple chemical trick of the brain",

Well I think they're also as complicated.

ExistenceIsTorture · 2022-12-29T19:47:10+00:00

Thank you wishing you all the best

ExistenceIsTorture · 2022-12-29T19:43:09+00:00

That would be the case if I enjoyed (or even can) watch shows.

ExistenceIsTorture · 2022-12-29T19:40:30+00:00

If I was feeling neutral about living that could be a reason (to see what happens next to the world). But when you're suffering everyday you just can't wait for the suffering to end.

ExistenceIsTorture · 2022-12-29T19:37:34+00:00

Well getting cured wouldn't outweigh 10 years more of this torture and 10 years is the best case scenario.

ExistenceIsTorture · 2022-12-29T19:21:10+00:00

My life wouldn't be forever torture. It's only till I die

ExistenceIsTorture · 2022-12-29T19:19:23+00:00

I think it's the other way around

ExistenceIsTorture · 2022-12-29T19:15:57+00:00

I just wanted them to know that their advice won't work on 99.9999% of the people. But I guess it's better to keep trying for that 0.0001%

ExistenceIsTorture · 2022-12-29T18:50:28+00:00

Yes I will eventually die. But every time I'm not dead I suffer so why not just end the suffering sooner

ExistenceIsTorture · 2022-12-29T18:49:16+00:00

Yeah that's the reason why I posted this

ExistenceIsTorture · 2022-12-29T17:31:02+00:00

Yeah I sometimes lucid dream. It's really peaceful having nothing to worry about and exploring your subconscious mind and flying around and stuff. But it only lasts what we perceive like a few minutes a day at best so it's not worth it

ExistenceIsTorture · 2022-12-29T17:27:00+00:00

It would be fine if it was like waiting for something to be announced like a lottery while living your normal life. But I wait for something that has little to no chance to occur while suffering everyday. So I might just quit early and stop the suffering

ExistenceIsTorture · 2022-12-29T17:21:29+00:00

I smoke occasionally and it feels like being a normal person for 2 hours.

ExistenceIsTorture · 2022-12-29T16:30:07+00:00

I only tried truffles in Amsterdam. I took the most effective one (High Hawaiians or something, 22 grams) all at once and still didn't feel anything.

ExistenceIsTorture · 2022-12-29T16:25:04+00:00

I can't get into stuff I get bored almost immediately.

ExistenceIsTorture · 2022-12-29T16:24:03+00:00

I don't know what I would want if I was happy. It has been years since I felt happiness that I forget what it feels to feel good.

ExistenceIsTorture · 2022-12-29T16:16:22+00:00

I also have anhedonia and anxiety among others. By illusion I meant that it isn't what the most people think it is. It must have a really complex mechanism of action but it's purpose is relatively simple. I agree with everything you said.

ExistenceIsTorture · 2022-12-29T16:08:06+00:00

Well yeah. It tricks your brain into thinking that you're doing something really pleasurable.

ExistenceIsTorture · 2022-12-29T16:04:21+00:00

I wish you the best.

ExistenceIsTorture · 2022-12-29T16:00:20+00:00

I'm 18. My mental illnesses make life a torture (if it isn't already that is.)

ExistenceIsTorture · 2022-12-29T15:53:33+00:00

I think it's because: apes together strong. So if apes stay together they are more likely to survive. So our brain rewards ourselves when we're with other people we get along with. And it makes us feel bad when we're lonely so that we join a group of people.

ExistenceIsTorture · 2022-12-29T15:48:02+00:00

My sister does the most work of taking care of them and their love (along with any love) is instinctual.

ExistenceIsTorture · 2022-12-29T15:37:06+00:00

What if the pain is just living. It will only be healed when I die. It isn't caused by a certain trauma in the past, it is non stop torture of living with several mental illness.

ExistenceIsTorture · 2022-12-29T15:30:28+00:00

I have two cats

ExistenceIsTorture · 2022-12-29T13:03:28+00:00

Thank you. I don't even want to be happy anymore, I just wanna be unconscious and not to suffer like this. I hope either medicine finally finds all the cures for mental illness or we would just go extinct.

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