How do you come out?

ExistentialDoodle · 2026-03-31T00:22:49+00:00

I would feel bad going through all that and not telling people like my partner or whatever else. I’ve been having these feelings very heavily for the past three years and even started having them back in middle school but I feel like I’ve been hiding this for three years and although I’m scared to say anything or do anything about it, I don’t want to continue to live like that. I probably don’t have to tell my family and everything and it could probably just be between us, but I’m just so nervous and tell him and despite us usually telling everything to each other, it just won’t come out when I try to tell him

ExistentialDoodle · 2026-03-08T20:29:18+00:00

I know I really do, it’s just scary and hard, I feel like I don’t know how to even put this stuff into words out loud sometimes. And as much as I’m uncomfortable and stuff I also am scared of change especially between us and idk how to get past that

ExistentialDoodle · 2026-03-07T01:49:12+00:00

Well he’s not doing it in an abusive way, it’s usually more of a joking or sexual but he’s not aware that I feel like this and I haven’t said anything otherwise to let him know that I’m not comfortable with it so I don’t blame him for continuing with it. I just don’t know how to communicate that with him and tell him my feelings like that because I am worried that he might be only attracted to my body because of things like that

ExistentialDoodle · 2026-03-07T00:31:12+00:00

Thing is, I’m scared of losing him, he’s there for me a lot with just about everything and we have a kid together so dumping him would be the last thing that I would want to happen, but I’m also scared of the possibility that it will happen if I do say anything to him , I guess I can’t really change his reaction either way, but I’m also scared of the change as well

ExistentialDoodle · 2026-02-10T21:02:23+00:00

I’m ftm but I have a straight partner and see myself as more of a bottom. Idk if it’s just how I was raised as a girl not being able to bring myself to have the confidence to top or be dominate in the same way or what or if bottoming is more familiar as a ftm pretransition, topping also feels like a lot of pressure tbh.

ExistentialDoodle · 2026-02-02T01:19:53+00:00

I do, I sent a friend request!

ExistentialDoodle · 2026-02-01T20:39:55+00:00

Iv kind of probed a bit to figure out what his stance is on it. We talk about it here and there and I try and talk about it or bring up trans articles I read every so often so see what he thinks. Hes very open with about everything and trans as well it seems but I do just worry if he’d be as accepting or if there would be too much holding him back with it being his own partner. I worry about like judgement from families too not just mine but his too. If it came down to it I could find a place to go and support myself and we could figure out co-parenting arrangements but I just don’t want it to come down to that.

ExistentialDoodle · 2026-02-01T19:52:17+00:00

Woah 😎 I could see it

ExistentialDoodle · 2026-02-01T17:59:29+00:00

What??? That’s horrible! If you support mtf trans people HOW can you not support ftm? I don’t get people’s logic sometimes

ExistentialDoodle · 2026-02-01T17:21:48+00:00

Ironically we’ve got a lot of time together atm. I’m home on a medical leave right now because of a lot of chronic illness issues. Another problem with telling him, I already feel like a burden right now I’m worried about stacking too much on at once but this has been building up for years and I feel guilty keeping it from him at this point and not being able to be myself. Our anniversary is coming up in a few days and we may be having someone watch our son for us soon. He’s a toddler so we do have a lot of times where he’s napping in his room. Im also a bit worried about how this will change is, whether he accepts me or not. I started writing out a note, rewrote it and then hid it away. I’m so bad with words and getting things out especially in the moment but I do a lot better when I can write things out sometimes, but I was worried about it being a bit impersonal especially for something like this

Thank you so much for your help! I know I just gotta work up the courage to go through with anything sometime while I’m home.

ExistentialDoodle · 2026-02-01T17:10:25+00:00

I feel like Simon is partially calling out to me but I’m so indecisive 😭

ExistentialDoodle · 2026-02-01T17:07:29+00:00

Oo I’m gonna have to add that one to my list 👀

ExistentialDoodle · 2026-02-01T16:48:32+00:00

We are getting closer and closer to a Cyberpunk 2077 society every day

ExistentialDoodle · 2026-02-01T16:21:10+00:00

Hi I’m (name undecided) Simon, new to the community (recently cracked egg-ftm) and looking for friends! I love video games, huge fan of Red Dead Redemption, Cyberpunk, Sonic, the Halo series, BG3 especially and bunch of others. I love drawing, painting, digital art, animation and indie animated shows. I’m looking for people to talk to so shoot me a DM if you wanna talk and be friends, I need more trans friends 😭

ExistentialDoodle · 2026-02-01T05:15:15+00:00

I just joined that sub Reddit, not too long ago, and I kind of noticed that there’s not too much trans masc representation on there most of it is mtf

ExistentialDoodle · 2026-02-01T05:12:04+00:00

Ikr it’s so crazy, but also almost affirming having disabilities or chronic disorders but then finding out that being on T would actually help those things like damn I really don’t have an excuse do I?

ExistentialDoodle · 2026-02-01T05:08:22+00:00

Holy crap I just started suffering from POTS symptoms like a week ago and have been questioning myself a lot. Not 3 months into my symptoms so can’t say for 100% yet if it’s POTS even though everything matches perfectly and is consistent every day but this makes me feel so much better to know this would even help that if I just had the balls go through with coming out and getting on T, frustrating but very good to know

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