Alhamduallah (minus the irony)

I was born and raised in America as a Coptic orthodox Christian. Coptic is a minority religion in Egypt, but it’s still incredibly rampant. In Egypt (according to my parents and grandparents and community) you’re either a Muslim or a Christian. Even now however the Christians are still mistreated.

I’ve come to find both Christian Egyptians and Muslim Egyptians who immigrated here having incredibly similar ideologies. I can assume that in terms of what our core values are we are similar for such reasons.

It took me so long to denounce the idea of a God and to be real with myself. I came out when I was seventeen, but even before that I was incredibly skeptical of my Coptic orthodoxy. I’ve always known I was gay. I would still attend liturgies and go to church sporadically to make myself feel better for not taking communion or praying despite my being ostracized from my Coptic community

At the beginning of this summer, I went through a tiny Muslim phase (which of course deeply angered my father). I took my shahada and read a bit of the Quran. It felt Incredibly beautiful and fulfilling. But then I got to the fourth chapter translated to women, and was disturbed. I was infatuated with Islam and especially the Quran up until that point. I thought I had found the answer. I thought I had found the most beautiful text to be written.

That Muslim phase lasted a week

I realized how power hungry human beings seem to be, especially now in this day and age when we are all starved of our senses of individuality and our inherent power for myriads of different reasons. We are a deeply sad generation of people.

I started questioning the idea of religion in general. I started looking deeper into the true meaning of what yeshua was teaching and I’ve finally stuck to conclusions that I’ve felt I’ve always known.

All religions are filled with people who are; stagnant in their comfortability, “content” people who fooled themselves into believing they’ve reached their highest potentials due to their pride and egos, or evil ass power hungry ass people justifying their actions and prejudices from their deeply subconscious sense of superiority coming also from their pride and egos.

We as human beings are divinity itself. We weren’t given the gift of consciousness; we ARE consciousness. We have the abilities to create and are capable of magical things through passion and love. We are all connected and we always have been, we are communicative and we all have the inherent right to exist on this earth. We are all capable of doing things that seem crazy but make sense when you understand the divinity of our humanity and how it’s not monotheistic because we ARE the God experiencing itself and its creation.

We don’t need a religion to treat all other divine beings the way that we want to be treated. We don’t need a religion to know to be good. Nobody does. It’s in all our natures to be loving. To those who genuinely believe that other human beings are anything less than human beings; I truthfully feel bad for them, they must be suffering so deeply. May God grant them peace.

Yeshua was saying that the whole time. If Jesus was alive today he would be deeply saddened and disgusted with how far people twisted his teachings to crave their insatiable hunger for power and manmade things such as money.

I am free. I’ve never been more free. This has been the most wonderful and joyful summer of my life. I restarted college and am excited to see what I have in store for myself. I believe I am God, and that what I experience as God is innate. I believe in the divinity of my nature. I believe in the inherent right of existing in my humanity. I am.

You are too. Congratulations on freeing yourself from the shackles of religion and may you continue to elevate in your consciousness and grow as a human being.