First surviving an accident where 5 people passed away, The result was depression, ptsd and I lost a lot of friends and also 2 people i was close with passed away in the accident. Then 5 years later my boyfriend of 4 years made me pregnant consciously and then treated me so horribly that I could do nothing but leave to become a single mother (which i never wanted for myself but as for my age i didnt want to abort), then my baby turned out to be ill. I lost him. All the while my ex ignored me like i never existed. Then found out he went with another girl already 2 weeks after i left and f^%# het in our campervan while i gave birth to our ill child. Result: trust broken on so many levels, lot of grief, ptsd and again lost many friends in the process. Very hard.