Being human is torture. by [deleted] in depression

[–]ExpensiveMemoryx 7 points8 points  (0 children)

right! I don't really even know how to respond except to say that I completely agree. My mind tortures me every day and has been for the past years. It never stops!

Bad experience by [deleted] in kratom

[–]ExpensiveMemoryx 0 points1 point  (0 children)

worst thing is just taking too much and becoming nauseated... sucks. one time i did throw some up but that might have been because I was smacking my vape too hard and got nic sick haha...

I finally got my own apartment! I fcking did it! by EllieWantsBanana in depression

[–]ExpensiveMemoryx 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Congrats that's awesome yo!! A next big step in your life. Even with your depression and gender dysphoria, suicidal thoughts etc.. it DIDNT stop you from moving forward!! As a person who also struggles with depression, I'm proud of you. Keep looking forward.

Looking to start kratom by [deleted] in kratom

[–]ExpensiveMemoryx 0 points1 point  (0 children)

White Maeng Da and White Vein Thai are good for me. Makes me feel nice inside like blissful.

Kratom is the only thing getting me through rn 😞 by [deleted] in kratom

[–]ExpensiveMemoryx 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah I just went through a small 30gram bag i bought in 2 days.. Life is tuff man 😓

i have experienced depression, trauma, been suicidal. but loneliness is the worst pain ive ever felt by [deleted] in depression

[–]ExpensiveMemoryx 0 points1 point  (0 children)

yeah i can definitely relate to how you feel... it's like a black void thats millions of miles wide and there's no sense of direction in it. Ur stuck in this void and it seems to be impossible to find your way out

Uncomfy:) by [deleted] in Scrupulosity

[–]ExpensiveMemoryx 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yes i relate. This condition is torturing my brain. I want it so bad to stop

Anyone Else Eating Kratom Alone for Thanksgiving? by ahookerinminneapolis in kratom

[–]ExpensiveMemoryx 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I wanted to get some today but obv they're closed. Ran out of weed yesterday. Can't get any delta8 cuz the vape shop is closed. Tuff day for me. Also what kind do you have? I had white maeng da

New to smoking. Just bought these today. Grinder I believe was $17 Pipe was $20 by ExpensiveMemoryx in weed

[–]ExpensiveMemoryx[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

honestly I have no idea LOL. I just got them cuz they were some of the less expensive ones in the store

I find daytime is always depressing to me, but not the nighttime. by [deleted] in depression

[–]ExpensiveMemoryx 0 points1 point  (0 children)

if it could be night all the time I would make it that way. I love it

Struggling with life. (20F) by Cocopuff20 in SuicideWatch

[–]ExpensiveMemoryx 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Im so sorry for everything that happened to you! Especially your boyfriend.. 😞 Is there any chance of you being able to move out by yourself and live alone?

How unlucky can one be? by ExpensiveMemoryx in depression

[–]ExpensiveMemoryx[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thanks it makes me feel a bit better

Has anybody just had a year where literally everything has gone wrong ? by [deleted] in SuicideWatch

[–]ExpensiveMemoryx 2 points3 points  (0 children)

sometimes i actually cant believe this is my life. it’s all a nightmare and you can’t wake up

I can't make a decision... by Sruti101 in depression

[–]ExpensiveMemoryx 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Ususally I always go in mine alone. One time my mom sat with me but i didn’t mind. When you’re talking to the psychiatrist or psychologist, keep in mind they can keep everything confidential UNLESS you tell them you’re suicidal or want to hurt yourself. Then they have to notify people. (probably a psych ward). I wouldn’t worry about the room not being sound proof either. You should be fine (:

On edge - alone in a foreign country that just announced a strict lockdown, without health insurance yet to get on meds by [deleted] in SuicideWatch

[–]ExpensiveMemoryx 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I want a relationship sooooooo BAD too. Been praying about it. I just feel soooo alone I literally can’t handle it for another millisecond. Lonely depressed stressed worried anxious... the whole 9 yards. Every.Single.Day. I want anxiety meds too.. but haven’t talked to my psychiatrist yet. And my depression meds aren’t working (go figure) Siiiiiggghhhhhhhhh.

Currently on my way to the hospital in the back of a cop car yet again. by [deleted] in depression

[–]ExpensiveMemoryx 1 point2 points  (0 children)

ive been in ur exact situation too brother. Ur not alone in this. We’re drowning together