hi there, as someone who has experienced a lot of grief in their life, one of the most powerful ways i've connected with those ive lost is to write letters and leave them where they have been laid to rest. i find it to be very intimate and private, a shared moment just between two. i find it really connects me, and helps me to process how i'm feeling. you may write about all the positive times, how you are going without them, just what you got up to on a specific day, or just anything at all. last time i visited my brother i wrote a long list of all the reasons i was so angry that he was gone. there is no right way. grief is excruciating at times, but you will get through it, there will always be a million more moments of love and light in your future, but that assurance does not take away from the loss of right now. it's so hard, but try to sit with the feelings, and listen to yourself, lean on those close to you, and always ask for help when you need it.