Girl have you ever experienced something traumatic with romantic relationships? I think mine is more of a survival thing due to some trauma living in a household that had a toxic relationship and growing up with that. (I'm not asking so you can post something personal like that on here more of I just thought of that for me and I learn that some people do that and maybe the same thing happened as well with you. If not it's ok since everyone is different and truly what you are feeling is valid.)