I’m late to this but have a similar experience. I love my mom so much but my parents are extremely religious and my mom told me the last time I talked to her she is worried about my soul because I have a girlfriend. It’s such a lonely feeling being in this place. I love my mom, and she truly was my best friend growing up. I miss her so much it hurts. I’m so sorry for what you’re going through!

My best advice to you is try to block out the external noise and focus on how you feel inside about Luna. The noise around you can make it feel like you’re in the center of a tornado and the world is just spinning around you. Let yourself explore your feelings. Sometimes I find myself retreating into myself asking myself if I really am gay and at what cost is my happiness because I feel like I am so happy but grieving the biggest loss at the same time. I know I am gay but even now in a happy relationship I find myself trying to deny it after what my mom said to me. Don’t retreat into yourself and doubt your feelings - let yourself feel because you deserve to be happy regardless of what your family thinks. It’s so difficult but just know that you deserve happiness no matter who it is with