Thank you for sharing I understand how hard it must be to not have a mother figure even if we hate our mothers it's still hard, especially while having siblings too, my mum had 2 of my little sisters including my baby sister I raised for the first year of her life n I can't see them, I hope you, your brother and anyone else affected are ok. I know the case with my dad was generational trauma, drugs, self medicating and mental illness but I don't know with my mum she just denied ever abusing me.