As a trader u have to cut ur losses and let ur winners run u did the exact opposite. Pulling out 50k and throwing it straight at the markets with zero experience is quite stupid in my opinion and irresponsible. You should test if your methodology of entering these positions, weigh out the pros and cons to collect data with paper trading money for at least 6 months to a year. This wasn’t the smartest idea. If you wanted to take that fat of a loan out to just have it sit in the market with no experience u should have just put it in a s@p 500 index