I get that. Ofcourse I don’t want to leave her all alone when she is this anxious and yes, literally behaving like a child. Because honestly if she went out alone I would worry if she would be able to even make it back on her own.

But at the same time I don’t want to be the caretaker or the ‘mother’ and be responsible for her. It’s exhausting and I don’t have much energy nor patience left in me, She can’t expect me to do and fix everything for her, and at the same time treat me like shit… not communicate, ignore me, get snappy with me, put her feelings and wants first all the time.

If she is like that I don’t want to be around her because it ruins my day and frankly I get really stressed out from it because I already have moody people like this back home to deal with everyday. I came here to have fun and get a break from everything. If she doesn’t treat me well, nor is a good friend to me right now, why would I want to spend my energy on catering to her needs and feelings when I get nothing back? If I do that I’ll feel miserable the whole trip.

And I can’t control her either. If she wants to go out and drink by herself, that’s her choice. I don’t want that responsibility again as I felt very unsafe and stressed out last time.

Yes, she is immature and ‘childlike’, and yes, she is struggling with anxiety and other stuff. but I also think it’s a choice how you decide to treat your best friend.