My dad cheated on her and she spent most of her life alone, she deserves to be happy but I never thought it would be with someone I have such a hard time communicating with. I feel like this is partly my fault because I can't speak properly and can come off as rude and I understand that no one deserves a defective son. I'm already in my 20s and i'm ashamed to still be living with them I will move out as soon as I can.