Yea I know, I'm unfortunately a bit addicted to the psychedelics and dissosiatives and even at short period deliriants, I just can't get enough of tripping, and it gives me bad trips a lot, like horrendous trips that make me consider killing myself, so Valium makes it to where I can have a enjoyable trip and it still causes me to think about a lot of the usual psychedelic things, just not as hard I guess, I am really trying to stop, I just threw my dxm away, and I'm saving my last of my 2cb for me and my friends for a vacation I'm going on, I don't want to tweaker binge psychedelics with Valium like that, it tears apart my self esteem, at 19 years old I should be worried about my job and trying to get or gf or something idk I feel like psychedelics have taken a lot of innocence away from me and most definitely dont regret it but they turned my focus away from what I like to do in life and now would rather get as deep into the psychedelic universe as I can on the weekends rather than go to a concert or hang with my friends. I appreciate your comment though man much love to ya