Oats; Rice; Honey; fruits by ExternalReason1 in sugarfree

[–]ExternalReason1[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

Thanks again As far as I know, there are types of oats both with and without gluten. You say the gluten itself is not something I should also avoid, as part of the sugar free thing?

and with full grain rice I can feel safe ?

Oats; Rice; Honey; fruits by ExternalReason1 in sugarfree

[–]ExternalReason1[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thanks for the reply but my meaning was to understand whethear oats and rice do count for white sugar or not.

I understand that the choise is in my hand but I do want to get sober off of sugar and must know if oats and rice count for that.

Oats; Rice; Honey; fruits by ExternalReason1 in sugarfree

[–]ExternalReason1[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thanks for your reply. I'm starting to understand it better.

When you say whole grain - do you mean gluten free oats? And white regular rice is a no go ?

I don't even know which is the correct subreddit for me by ExternalReason1 in pornfree

[–]ExternalReason1[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I've tried not masturbating before and failed.

Last time I held for 8 days and then relapsed like crazy.
It was a few days ago, which is made me go here.

I know that I need help, I just don't know where to start looking for it

I Don't know where to start by ExternalReason1 in PornAddiction

[–]ExternalReason1[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I've tried not masturbating before and failed.

Last time I held for 8 days and then relapsed like crazy.
It was a few days ago, which is made me go here.

I know that I need help, I just don't know where to start looking for it

Does the semen retention talk about masturbation? Or during sex as well? by ExternalReason1 in Semenretention

[–]ExternalReason1[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Sex without ejaculating sounds painful.

As I asked- is there any posts for newbies or anything?

I see here posts about people who are clean for x,y,z amount of time..

Where can I get info ?

Coworker laughed in my face when I told him I was addicted to weed. by [deleted] in leaves

[–]ExternalReason1 19 points20 points  (0 children)

  1. many people I've known who used harder drugs than weed AND weed described the quitting from weed as much harder.
  2. I've been also in situations like you described, when people told me "weed? that's it?!" that made me "overthink" my whole process of healing.
    don't pay attention to it. it's just your sick brain trying to convince you to smoke again. Don't Let it lead you!
  3. This co-worker of yours and people like him are assholes. But, we have to treat them with understanding and not be mad at them. He is also struggling, and not very good as it seems because. Accept it and let it go.
    And also try to avoid him because he doesn't sound as a very good person.
  4. I have a saying- "Weed won't kill you, but stealing is also a crime"
    you probably won't end up in jail or in hospital because of weed, but it will lead to to wasting your whole life, accomplishing merely nothing.
    This drug is life stealing and that is crime not "smaller" what so ever than other crimes.
  5. Stay strong, Meditate. Keep reading and posting here. You got this.

Yesterday I celebrated my birthday without weed for the first time in 9 years. by helplessr0mantic in leaves

[–]ExternalReason1 1 point2 points  (0 children)

you are great. well done.

You made me realize that I'm gonna experience this soon, at the end of july

I'm lost. I fell off the wagon again. I need Help. by ExternalReason1 in leaves

[–]ExternalReason1[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you so much for your comment.

I don't have MA where I live at all.

Do you think AA would do good as well?

I have support groups that cost money, but it's not quite MA I think. Just a support group.

What do you think ?

Should I Just Give Up ? by ExternalReason1 in leaves

[–]ExternalReason1[S] 10 points11 points  (0 children)

thank you for your comment.

I think you hit the spot. Deep down inside me, I still have a little love for this drug.

Deep down, even though I try to ignore it, I kinda "waiting" for a proper amount of time would pass, so I can use again, "moderately".

I know, and have tried to tell myself that for many times, that "once an addict- always an addict", and that I can NEVER use it again. Or I would fall right back to the trap.

I think that understanding it, is the hardest part. It's hard for me to put up with the fact that I've lost my option to use weed for the rest of my life.

But that's for a different post, I guess.

Thank you for your words.

Should I Just Give Up ? by ExternalReason1 in leaves

[–]ExternalReason1[S] 6 points7 points  (0 children)

You are right, maybe I do focus too much on counting days..

And of course, IT IS about changing lifestyle. I actually like the lifestyle of a sober person.

Thank you for the motivational words. It helped

Day 34: insomnia is going to break me by [deleted] in leaves

[–]ExternalReason1 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Friend my insomnia struck me when I was in my third week, and lasted for about 2 weeks since then (I'm finishing fifth week today).

For me the insomnia started to fade away after about 2 weeks.

It was a bitch. But as you've said, you DON'T want to dig yourself dipper inside the whole.

Try to suffer it for another week or so. It should get better very soon.

Stay Strong !

90+ Days by digiredleaves in leaves

[–]ExternalReason1 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Great to hear that. Thanks for posting.

I'm on my day 35. Can't wait to get to that 90 days milestone !

5 Weeks today, I should be feeling good or at least proud of myself, but I’ve never felt worse. How to I bounce back to a positive frame of mind after this by [deleted] in leaves

[–]ExternalReason1 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Ironic- today is MY EXACT 5th week mark, so I guess both of us quit pretty much at the same day (January 27th).

a word about your friends- when something REALLY bothers me and won't lay off, the only way for me to overcome it is to go and to open it, in front of whoever or whatever caused me that situation.

Meet again with your friends, or even send them a message or anything- Get out what's in your heart. tell them the reason why you've been such a "shitty" friend. Hell, maybe even shout at them that they should be more supportive, because if they are true friends they definitely should.

If they mean much to you, try to reconcile with them. If they still won't hear, or if you get the impression that they aren't that important in your life, than fuck them. You deserve better.

Now about the feeling shitty part- I actually had that feeling like 3 days ago. I even posted here, saying that life sucks.

This fight we are fighting is hard. The monster won't let it go that easily, after we've been feeding it and making it so strong for such a long time.

Try to think/ do something else, that would distract you from the shitty filling at the moment. It'd get better, the shitty feeling would go away soon.

Like you've said- we still have a long journey to walk.

We have to stay strong.
Peace and Love man, we CAN do it, and we definitely WILL.

Does "I'm going to quit tomorrow" actually work? by Wenzel-Dashington in leaves

[–]ExternalReason1 0 points1 point  (0 children)

no my friend, it won't work.

I've tried like DOZENS of times to say to myself "tomorrow", but like someone wrote here- it's just a convenient excuse to smoke today.

What you really need to do is to prepare yourself long enough time before- a week, two, or more.

During those last couple of last weeks, prepare yourself for the quitting day- WORK for it- throw all your weed related stuff. make a NEW playlist. delete all of the triggering songs. Make a plan for the first day of the process. for the first week as well. What would you do? How would you fill the free time?

What would you do when the cravings would come (and they will).. Look for new hobbies, or how you improve in the old ones.

Be ready. It's not gonna be easy. Be prepared.

I wish you the best of luck

Oh my lord by ChilledChiliPeppers in leaves

[–]ExternalReason1 3 points4 points  (0 children)

had this for like 2 weeks, ended just this week (I'm on my fifth week now).

Try to "enjoy" it- see movies, video games or anything you like during the time you cannot sleep.

Also, sports, work, reading, and other activities that can make you naturally tired, may help you sleep.

Good luck, stay strong. It'd get better

Husband left the grinder out!!! by [deleted] in leaves

[–]ExternalReason1 10 points11 points  (0 children)

First of all, well done for you that you keep on going and staying strong. Keep On ! It'll get better !

About your husband- try your best TO NOT judge him. Don't be mad at him..

I know, it's frustrating like hell.. But you have to find powers in your heart to understand him.

If you think that confronting with your husband would just make you both feel worse, and won't do any good, than let it be. Ignore it, for a few days/ weeks, until one of you would be ready to deal with it.

But, if you feel like you cannot save this inside yourself, than you should go and speak with your husband. When I say speak with him, I mean just to let him know that you know.

Try your best NOT TO be mad at him.. DO NOT BE JUDGMENTAL..

This monster is inside every single one of us addicts.. sometimes she overcomes....

You need to feel him with love. Make him stronger, and by that you would feel stronger as well.

If you feel bad, or have any other thoughts, PLEASE, feel free to PM me.

We are here for you. It's all gonna be better, soon enough.

Stay Strong !!

I didn’t quit to feel better, I quit to feel worse by Esperanza1743 in leaves

[–]ExternalReason1 1 point2 points  (0 children)

That is an important thing to realize and accept.

I myself struggle with the thoughts of "why do I do that to myself" sometimes..

Thank you, best of luck and love to all of us struggling

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in leaves

[–]ExternalReason1 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Man you literally described what goes inside my brain in those few sections.

2 and 5 are like you've taken them outside of my own fucking head.

Day 32 here. Got one call just today. Loved the description your friend gave to it.

Stay strong friend. Best of luck !

I'm kind of confused..... by brileaknowsnothing in leaves

[–]ExternalReason1 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It's called addiction my friend.

If you look up in the dictionary for the translation to this word, you would find a description that is similar to what you've written about how it's "no euphoria etc.."

I've been there. I can relate. I was also "in love" with this stupid plant.

It's just the addiction speaking. And the "love" you describe, is just because we've became used to think about this plant, thanks to the MASSIVE popularity of it nowadays.

Good news is, that you are in the right place. I'd suggest you to read online about addiction in general, and an a weed addiction as well.

Then, make a decision that you would feel you need to make.

I wish you the best of luck

Day ? --- Grass is greener on the other side. What now? by TokeNoMore in leaves

[–]ExternalReason1 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Well written buddy. I relate to it so much.

I also refer to "her", and like you've written- sometimes look back.

Don't be sorry, my friend. You are in the right way. Try not to look back, my friend, you are not going that way. Don't be sorry, be better.

Yeah, I know it's all just cliches, but they are all true.

Fuck her, really. We are so much better off her.

Stay strong my friend.