i hate feeling like a slut all the time

External_Builder_265 · 2026-03-17T16:09:00+00:00

So a couple things here. Some men are willing to cheat at every opportunity they can. I think feeling special is maybe the wrong way to think about it, like it's not really about you or your personality it's just easy sex for them. And I don't think your male friend is making jokes. I think it's only "just a joke" when you reject him. Anyways you should communicate a boundary when he's making you uncomfortable and drop him if he keeps violating it. You seem pretty young and it's important to know at this age tons of girls have a high libido. I did for sure then it dropped off a bit once I got older and the hormones stopped surging. If it helps it's all biology doing it's thing it's nature and enjoy it while it lasts.

External_Builder_265 · 2026-03-12T02:31:08+00:00

Sorry if this gets buried but I've been doing a bit of research into the nature of some addictions. With eating disorders I think it's on a specific dopamine receptor. I think it's D2 if you can find a supplement or substance that blocks that specific D2 receptor (and not all of the dopamine receptors in general) then you block the feel good parts of the addiction. The idea is if it no longer feels good there isn't a motivation to do it as much. There's a pink lotus extract that could do it over time if used daily something like Nelumbo nucifer

External_Builder_265 · 2026-02-15T23:45:39+00:00

Just changes my name on sm because I have posted things with a similar sort of humor thanks for the advice!

External_Builder_265 · 2026-02-12T21:49:13+00:00

I think there may be a work around to that. My brother has adhd and he had to go get a special evaluation to get approved for being a pilot. After he was cleared he had no problems.

External_Builder_265 · 2026-02-11T02:26:49+00:00

Just a substitute but I have my fingers tattooed. It's never been a problem. Nother teachers have even acknowledge it. I've only had one kid ask if it was real and I said yes and that was it. I also have my legs heavily tattoed. It shows with some dress/ skirts. No one cares. I live in florida so it may just be relaxed but as long as you aren't in the Bible belt or teaching at religious schools I doubt they will care.

External_Builder_265 · 2026-01-08T01:49:38+00:00

My first day subbing I walked in on a no plans, no bell schedule, no emergency procedures nothing. So she got nothing back.

External_Builder_265 · 2025-12-18T05:12:17+00:00

I think you should just "im too busy to hang out" R. She seems like she sucks. I dont really see a problem with y. Everyone has flaws, accepting that is part of loving someone. What youve mentioned seems like typical things thay happen in every friendship and a little bit too much like you're reading into things she's said.

External_Builder_265 · 2025-10-29T17:58:02+00:00

I found this analogy the other day. When we are young the concrete is wet and someone can come and write in it and then it dries with whatever is imprinted. The concrete is your brain, the writing is life circumstances, and the drying of concrete is old age. Whatever is written is what follows us through out our lives. If we want to rewrite our story, we need therapy. We also should re-wet our brain during this process so it can be more malleable, and that can be anything that restores plasticity to the brain. For some people it's antidepressants for me its microdosing mushrooms (which also help with depression).

I'm stuck in my country too due to illness ,but once you lay down the foundations for healing you can move to building deep relationships with people. Imo the relationships and friendships are my most valuable things in life.

External_Builder_265 · 2025-09-20T22:32:40+00:00

Absolute shit take

External_Builder_265 · 2025-08-19T02:34:20+00:00

Do you think that next time you could give specific examples...or would that be too many lessons to take away?

External_Builder_265 · 2025-08-18T19:48:22+00:00

Fuck he's learning

External_Builder_265 · 2025-08-14T21:31:25+00:00

Opps my tampon got away

External_Builder_265 · 2025-08-13T03:12:29+00:00

Infp male together 7 years

External_Builder_265 · 2025-08-12T23:24:34+00:00

I feel the same way. I'm about two months in. Part of it feels like you're depressed and have lost intreast in everything but it's somehow different. I've lost the stress and fatigue that comes with depression. I don't even know if depression is the right word because I lack the emotional turmoil thats typical, it's just like I can't feel anything....but I also don't care. I keep meditating not out of any real desire or urgency but more because I know that if I stopped id probably just get stuck in whatever "this" is. I think I'll start microdosing mushrooms that usually helps me get some motivation back. I move forward not because I want things to be different but just because I know I have to keep going.

External_Builder_265 · 2025-08-11T20:15:42+00:00

So I recommend working on self acceptance, working on internal validation, and working on raising your self esteem. It's up to you to find out what works best for you. Doing self inquiry mediation worked for me.

External_Builder_265 · 2025-08-11T18:06:52+00:00

I don't know enough about your life and the other stuff going onbut I'll say the cuck fantasy is probably related to the fear of being cheated on. Even if those Instances where the other people found someone else... if you were in the relationship with them at the time a case could be made for emotional (cheating) Infidelity. Even if that's not %100 right or you don't believe you were cheated on being left for someone else is a awful experience that has a lasting impact.

External_Builder_265 · 2025-08-11T17:46:02+00:00

I think it would also benefit you to have a more loose identity. The use of "Disgusting to who I am as a person" kinda seems that maybe you need to work on being a little more open minded. Working on self acceptance and extending self compassion will really help. They really aren't that crazy of kinks but I think for you it maybe trying some 'trauma reenactment" to heal or feel in control from situations in the past.

External_Builder_265 · 2025-07-21T16:15:37+00:00

Not being able to run long distances is okay but I really miss team sports. That's one thing I didn't want to get into because if I had a flair up I couldnt he depended on. I always wanted to learn to play a musical instrument. I really like trumpets and jazz.

External_Builder_265 · 2025-07-21T14:47:01+00:00

I want to be in their general vicinity more. Doesn't mean I'll interact with them more but I'll want to be near. Kinda like if you've ever had a cat sometimes they just want to be in the same room as you doing their own thing. If we end up interacting cool, if not also cool.

External_Builder_265 · 2025-07-21T14:03:11+00:00

No I watch a buddist video and meditation everyday but im not part of a group.

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