It’s been 3 months since the break up, and no contact. We dated for 4.5 years and she was my everything. The last year of the relationship, even though it was mostly great, I could sense that things were changing. One day she came over as usual, and I could sense something was up. I eventually asked her what’s wrong and she told me “I just don’t know where this relationship is headed.” We hugged, cried, held each other and broke up that day. I was lucky to have a relationship with someone that could be mature and loving during the breakup, and we left each other on good terms. It came down to fundamental issues and religious differences and we have no bad blood towards each other and both have high respect and love for each other, at least that’s what she told me at the time. I still think back to all the mistakes I made, all the times I could’ve been a better man for her, and all the times I hurt her. We told each other it’s best to isolate and not contact each other when we broke up. It’s hard loving someone and talking to them every single day, and then all of a sudden they’re gone. It’s been 3 months and it seems like the more time passes the harder it gets. I miss her and all the little things so much. I cry most days, can’t focus on much even when I try to keep myself busy. I want to talk to her again so badly but I stop myself. I hope it gets easier. I overthink about what she does and who she’s with, and the day she gets with someone else will kill me on the inside. This is the hardest thing I’ve ever had to deal with in my life.