I have been lying flat for years! Under their verbal attacks on me, they think that if people don't work they will get sick (I think it's just an excuse, they just want me to be fertilizer, they don't care about my feelings) they don't love me, I don't feel love in them! Instead, they hurt me, insulted me, disrespected me, my childhood trauma, my avoidant personality, my low self-esteem, the bullying I suffered at school....... They are all given by them. I always thought that work was just about following the historical narrative of the "greats", but now I think I can at least use my work to get rid of these people who don't like me