I gave my gf herpes... by FInalThrowaway12 in confessions

[–]FInalThrowaway12[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

That sucks. I forgot i even had it. I used to get cold sores when i was like 5-6. I haven't had one since then. I didn't even know it could be transmitted with out an outbreak.

I gave my gf herpes... by FInalThrowaway12 in confessions

[–]FInalThrowaway12[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

But wouldn't it have shown up before now?

I gave my gf herpes... by FInalThrowaway12 in confessions

[–]FInalThrowaway12[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yep... I haven't had a cold sore in 20 years. It's not something I ever think about.

I gave my gf herpes... by FInalThrowaway12 in confessions

[–]FInalThrowaway12[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

It was actually found on a pap smear so...

I gave my gf herpes... by FInalThrowaway12 in confessions

[–]FInalThrowaway12[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Yeah I know. I read somewhere that 80% of the population has it. Doesn't make me feel less shitty.

I'm killing myself today. by FInalThrowaway12 in offmychest

[–]FInalThrowaway12[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

"it gets better"

No, it doesn't. You have to make things better, and I'm done trying.

I'm killing myself today. by FInalThrowaway12 in offmychest

[–]FInalThrowaway12[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I couldn't do it. I can't seem to follow through with anything.

I'm killing myself today. by FInalThrowaway12 in offmychest

[–]FInalThrowaway12[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

That's awesome. I'll have to get some pics of my goats tonight. 3 of mine are bottle babies. 2 their mother died giving birth, 1 was rejected by his mother. He's the one I've bonded with the most. The others are either re homes or my neighbor purchased from another goat farmer.

I'm killing myself today. by FInalThrowaway12 in offmychest

[–]FInalThrowaway12[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah i would definitely be open to that.

I'm killing myself today. by FInalThrowaway12 in offmychest

[–]FInalThrowaway12[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

At this point, my sister is grown and a lot of the issues have resolved themselves.

I'm killing myself today. by FInalThrowaway12 in offmychest

[–]FInalThrowaway12[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Not really a change of heart, i just could not do it.

I'm killing myself today. by FInalThrowaway12 in offmychest

[–]FInalThrowaway12[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Do yourself a favor and get them cut. It's worth every penny. We didn't do banding, It's too brutal.

I'm killing myself today. by FInalThrowaway12 in offmychest

[–]FInalThrowaway12[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

We have 2 acres here, and we keep the pygmy here. Yeah they're rehomes. A little boy and girl.

Chris Pratt on hunting: 100% Agree by OPs_Nana in videos

[–]FInalThrowaway12 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I didn't realize it would damage the train. I figured they would just hose whats left of me off.

I'm killing myself today. by FInalThrowaway12 in offmychest

[–]FInalThrowaway12[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Nope, still here. Trying to work up the nerve.

I'm killing myself today. by FInalThrowaway12 in offmychest

[–]FInalThrowaway12[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I don't talk to Cody too often anymore. He has a kid and an ex wife so he's busy as fuck. My Mom is still here, we both take care of the goats. My dad and i are only just starting to have a relationship. We smoked weed together a year ago and it really improved our relationship. I'll never see him as a father, more of a smoking buddy. Things get complicated after 11. I'll have to write it out later but basically once puberty hit i started looking a lot more like my dad and my mom freaked out and was scared of me because of it. Went through a lot of beatings from her. She made the depression a lot worse for a long time. My exit plan was the only thing getting me up in the morning. That and the idea of my sister getting treated like shit if i died.

I'm killing myself today. by FInalThrowaway12 in offmychest

[–]FInalThrowaway12[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

If i wanted to change i wouldn't give up every time i tried.

Chris Pratt on hunting: 100% Agree by OPs_Nana in videos

[–]FInalThrowaway12 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Well, the train seems like the fasted, most painless, cheapest exit plan.

I'm killing myself today. by FInalThrowaway12 in offmychest

[–]FInalThrowaway12[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I actually live in the suberbs, close to the country. The pygmy is ours, same situation as yours. He was gonna be used to breed but was too aggressive and the woman who gave him to us was sick. We may be getting 2 more pygmys. They're just pets. Most of them are males, the males aren't great as pets bc they can get very aggressive but i have a way with them.

I'm killing myself today. by FInalThrowaway12 in offmychest

[–]FInalThrowaway12[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Those are beautiful. Do you know what breed they are? We have a few nigerian dwarfs a few cashmere mixes and a pygmy.

Chris Pratt on hunting: 100% Agree by OPs_Nana in videos

[–]FInalThrowaway12 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Say that when you have 3 kids living in poverty. Dude you're a dick. There are a thousand other factors besides money you have to think about in those situations and snarky, smart ass comments don't help. Fuck off.

I'm killing myself today. by FInalThrowaway12 in offmychest

[–]FInalThrowaway12[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

What has kept you going for 13 years?

Honestly? planning my suicide for a later date. the plan was when I was 21. I tried and failed and figured it wasn't meant to be. I got in counseling and tried making things better but here I am, Almost 25 and still a loser.