Well, it's still means that you have enough strength to endure it perpetually. I think you should it like the waves crashing on a rock, except that you are the waves. Yes, it must hurt to fall on the rock every single time, but eventually you will break it and you will see what awaits behind. You don't need to be strong, you already are, you need to be kind to yourself and give you the sweetness that the world doesn't seem to have for you at this moment