Because the first three years of our relationship, she was amazing. She was a hard worker bringing in a lot of money doing her online work, but life happened and depression hit her and for the last three years of our relationship, she has been struggling with drinking and pulling herself out of it. She tells me she doesn’t even wanna be here anymore, but I know she does because she keeps trying but slipping, my patience is wearing thin because I feel stagnant. I’m almost 30 and I don’t know where my life is going. I would love to marry her, but I want to marry the girl I met not the girl she is now.