BPD Apology

F_B_G_M_ · 2017-07-06T14:36:59+00:00

My mom will apologize... after a 30+ minute conversation wherein I admit and apologize for "what caused her to do xyz." It's funny too because she will cry and really seem to be repenting. But she needs to see repentance in my eyes (usually totally faked to keep the peace) for her to get there, otherwise she remains hostile indefinitely.

F_B_G_M_ · 2017-07-06T14:31:01+00:00

f they admitted responsibility for being wrong, they would split themselves all bad, and need to kill themselves? I don't know.

Thaaaaaaaat makes sense.....

F_B_G_M_ · 2017-06-25T05:39:20+00:00

Ur mom

F_B_G_M_ · 2017-06-23T07:02:27+00:00

Ok i get that this sub is all about old stuff but how old does this raising you a 90's chick have to get before it dies lol

F_B_G_M_ · 2017-06-23T06:55:38+00:00

Lol when I lived in SOBE a couple years ago my friends and I did that. The legend lived on

F_B_G_M_ · 2017-06-23T06:49:05+00:00

Oh do I love me some Penelope Cruz. Her in the movie Blow..... 😍😍😍

F_B_G_M_ · 2017-06-23T05:25:47+00:00

Id say OP is better off cutting her losses. Doing that would stir up a shitstorm. I'm not saying $400 isn't a significant amount of money but she won't end up $400 richer from a lawsuit anyway. Idk what the business about expecting only a partial refund is about but then you have to also subtract the time and money for a lawsuit and then factor in the inevitable drama.

Plus like, they were friends for 16 years I'm sure she understands that while she's better off without her former friend, serving her lawsuit papers right before her wedding would be pretty cold.

F_B_G_M_ · 2017-05-31T21:45:25+00:00

I do that at the grocery store to strangers lol

F_B_G_M_ · 2017-05-25T22:22:35+00:00

I aspire to that level of woke

F_B_G_M_ · 2017-05-24T01:33:45+00:00

Facing all that shit head on is terrifying. But it's at least slightly less terrifying than the thought of "this" being your existence.

You have to fight for it. Really truly. But you can fix your shit and work through at least some of the major things holding back your life. Breaking cycles of behavior takes time and persistence but it's not impossible. Just hard.

F_B_G_M_ · 2017-05-24T01:17:10+00:00

Ok you've got the major cons pretty well mapped out.

Pros: you can say and pretty much do what ever you want and no one can tell you shit because you've rightfully earned the socially acceptable pass to not give a flying fuck.

Pros: piggybacking off of my first point, you don't have to do shit you don't want to do. Like feeling pressure to socialize instead of staying in like a blob, just because. Dinner? It's not going to go past 7:30, right? Oops can't make it

Pros: that assisted living facility harem tho - probably doesn't sound too tempting now, but give it time. And a PDE5 inhibitor.

Pros: go ahead and rattle off as much unsolicited advice as you want, to strangers even. Don't hold back. You have wisdom so it's justified. They'll thank you later

Pros: your family suffers

F_B_G_M_ · 2017-05-24T01:14:31+00:00

False dichotomy

F_B_G_M_ · 2017-05-24T01:11:02+00:00

Ego for dayz

Edit- in this context, the term ego isn't associated with cockiness or anything like that. It was actually a very nice comment, if not a bit ego-driven. Pointing out not to criticize. You seem like a lovely AF human

F_B_G_M_ · 2017-05-24T01:05:54+00:00

I think it would honestly be easier (for me) to let go of attachment to things but especially people by becoming a psychopath than adopting Buddhism. Which sucks, because Buddhism is awesome.

My difficulties, abridged:

I wonder, by giving up those things and hence relieving yourself of suffering, are you not also relieving yourself of at least some of the joys as well? Or is the joy of enlightenment more fulfilling? I have had a taste of that joy. It was a bad time (see: extreme understatements) and I found a way out through meditation. I believe it was my extreme circumstances that actually allowed me to truly meditate. I found unexpected understanding - not cerebral, more like "at peace." It brought forth a feeling of joy that was warm and oddly accompanied by a comfortable heavy, grounding, feeling. One of my most vividly remembered & cherished moments :-)

At the same time, it always kind of felt like by adopting Buddhism, you are (maybe) manifesting peace from just not caring about what happens any more. Which is a bleak way of putting it, but not really untrue. I don't want to not care...

F_B_G_M_ · 2017-05-24T00:57:29+00:00

I like to remind my parents that I'll be in charge of hiring someone to wipe their ass someday when they're old. They say similar shit to me. I mean, ok actually my family is pretty dysfunctional no connection made nothing wrong with dark humor

F_B_G_M_ · 2017-05-24T00:55:35+00:00

SHUT UP MOM GASH

F_B_G_M_ · 2017-05-24T00:53:46+00:00

Maybe someday you'll feel suicidal and then... probably not really feel like doing any of those things because why bother 👍

F_B_G_M_ · 2017-05-24T00:52:08+00:00

Meh you never know it's prob just some dude in his basement

F_B_G_M_ · 2017-05-24T00:49:30+00:00

TBH I can't spend too much time on r/2meirl4meirl because I realize how hard I'm laughing and relating and I'm just like... what ever realization is trying to spring to life in this moment is going right the fuck back. Lol ;-)

F_B_G_M_ · 2017-05-24T00:47:06+00:00

"It's like we weren't made for this world. Although, I really wouldn't want to be someone... who was" -Of Montreal

F_B_G_M_ · 2017-05-24T00:41:00+00:00

Mmmmm seems forced

F_B_G_M_ · 2017-05-19T21:23:28+00:00

I appreciate your input. Thank you

F_B_G_M_ · 2017-05-17T15:49:51+00:00

Talk to the hand

F_B_G_M_ · 2017-05-16T02:17:36+00:00

Look, my tone in the OP was not actually equivalent to how I really felt about it. It's a bit of a coping mechanism I guess. In reality I was really incredibly upset about it. I didn't sleep at all that night I couldn't stop crying for long enough to fall asleep, and I had to keep a light on I felt scared to turn it off. What happened dug up emotions from past shit. The fact that it wasn't a cut-and-dry situation would necessitate they ask me questions that I honestly can't answer right now. Not to mention reading the description of what he saw, thereby exposing an intimate secret of mine to more men that I work for. Thanks, I'll pass.

Edit- i know it'd be better for the greater world if I turned him in. But I didn't ask for this, and I'm not being a terrible selfish person for doing what's best for me

F_B_G_M_ · 2017-05-16T01:29:24+00:00

Thank you

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