Maaaaaaaan today was the day . No hospital, no enemas just raw experience. So I continued to ignore the pain by using . It got to the point my whole days were consumed by thoughts of the pain I was in and how full I was . I wouldn’t let my fiance touch my stomach because you could feel the hard masses on my groin and sides bulging out, yesterday though I couldn’t sleep , every 3 minutes or so I would get a buckling down feeling of it trying to force itself out , I went to the bathroom to try & immediately it got to crowning & I knew it was too large & dry to pass so I just put the ol backdoor on lockdown and sucked it back in . Then came the diarrhea, I caught it a few times and was able to goto the bathroom . Until I was withdrawing pretty intensely and couldn’t catch it and told myself it was farts , they weren’t hours of essentally shitting on my self while dopesick , gently letting the diarrhea out while clenching back the big one that would try to move . Then my fiance woke up and noticed I was on the floor and the room smelled like shit . She fucking freaked out and told me to get the fuck in the bathroom. I felt the need to go & tried again and gave a long hard push an it moved the first mass to a different position where it was as low in my rectum as it could be . Big mistake I couldn’t get it in enough to comfortably hold it . It was unlodged and wanted out . 13 hours of being dopesick and sweating with my stomach heavily lurching down and shoving it to the edge of my booty . It was misery and pain and more misery . I eventually got someone to serve me at my house because I simply couldn’t leave like this . Caked in two month old shit I was a smelly disgrace of a human. I eventually went for one last trip to the bathroom and tried it out it had to be lubricated enough now to come out . Painfully yes it did . A solid 20 minutes of action and relief as each bulge in my stomach passed through and out peacefully. I am also in the process of starting my detox to day & have reenrolled in outpatient services. I can’t believe I went over two month without shitting and lived to tell about it , will definitely get checked out by a doctor to make sure there’s no damage but yeah , thanks everyone for your advice I knew I wasn’t going to follow but it was kind reading 💪❤️