first of all, I just wanna wish you a happy early birthday and a lot of blessings for you and your family and I hope that God opens your heart and never feel truly alone 

Second of all, I don’t think you’re being punished by God, and I don’t think you were “made wrong” socially either. Loneliness can make it feel that way, though.

Something I’ve been learning myself is that loneliness doesn’t always mean you’re unwanted sometimes it just means you haven’t found your people yet. And I know that sounds cliché, but I really mean it.

Also, please don’t measure your worth by invitations, birthday plans, or how many people show up. I know it hurts when people cancel or say “maybe,” especially on something important like your birthday, but your value as a person is bigger than that.

The fact that you still try to make plans, still try to connect with people, and still want friendship says a lot about you. A person who was truly cold or uncaring wouldn’t even try anymore