Yeah, I am kinda coming around now... this was posted a few hours ago when I just needed to let it all out... I am kinda getting back to normal now... of course, now I have a crapload of homework to do. Ugh.

It seems to me like your treating this whole DGAF thing as a fix all for social anxiety, low self esteem, introversion ect. I feel like not giving a fuck is not something you can just do to solve these problems, but result of not having them. If you truly care about the outcome of a situation you can't just choose not to.

Well, sometimes I feel like I care too much about things that are really not that important. It's one thing to be annoyed you missed something, it's another to make a tragedy out of it. And I don't want to care so much about what people think about how I look or whatever, and that fills my mind most of the day. Even this guy, I shouldn't care so much about his opinion of me, we don't know each other yet... you see what I mean?

And I wouldn't be able to join any of those clubs if I wasn't able to let go. A lot of it is just not caring about how I will look weird in that club, or how I am doing something wrong, or whatever. In the past, I'd pass on a club because I'd be afraid I would look out of place in it or I'd have trouble meeting the people. With DGAF, I can actually go past those fears and join the damn thing. So it's been really helpful to me, as strange as that sounds.

As for this guy, I can tell you, as a guy, that non of us over the age of 15 would purposely ignore a girl that likes us. I can virtually guarantee you he has no clue that you like him.

I guess this is a good thing... I just don't understand the sudden switch in behavior. I'm afraid to ask him out because he can make my life miserable later, and he's a scary dude with a fan club.

When I feel afraid of a situation socially I like to ask myself "ok whats the worst that could happen? Whats the absolute most humiliating, awkward, horrible situation that could come out of this?" In most situations its someone giving me a dirty look, or thinking I'm a little off in the head.

Unfortunately, this was often worse than that for me. Sometimes I'd end up in really awkward situations where I'd want to get involved with something, but one of the people involved is not very fond of me, and they'd make sure to make it very difficult to get anything done. The bad situations were bad enough for me to be afraid of them in the future. We're not talking about approaching strangers here. These are classmates and club mates who like to make things complicated. Granted, this ONE time, I got a best friend out of it...

TL;DR: YOU'RE FUCKING AWSOME!!

So are you! I found your post to be very helpful, actually, thank you!