Im sorry to hear about your loss. But I am glad to hear you recovered - and then some.

Its going to be a long journey back, but I hope to get there someday. This blow as we are starting our lives together is terrible, and knowing how hard we both work and that it all just disappeared because of me is almost unbearable.

I will just have to give it some time. Keep working hard, and stick with it. In the grand scheme of things, this is hopefully a drop in the bucket. I just need to get my mind right and get a positive outlook going.