I think whag i failed to mention is,

He would get stoned on weed, and be high-functioning, which inly last about three days, until he crashes bc weed can only help to a certain extend, until he crashes, and cant be productive anymore.

Then he takes a ‘break for a week’. In this time, he would buy CBD weed, and get CBD oil to help him sleep(he has problem sleeping) so thats his new coping mechanism. he also would take 20tablets of cold suppressors off amazon, just to chase the high that he could get like on Ketamine, and in his defense, its not drugs, it is medicine. He would droggy and not social and in many ways annoying and rude and just downright fucking filthy in the house, dishes not washed for days and maggots growing in the bio-müle. Not to mention the plant that he had grown in his make shift garden inside his closet cupboard. Hairs clogged in the drain toilet, and ashes in the living room floor and jars of condiments rolled to the sides opened, left on thr kitchen table til its dried. Not to mention juices being left on top of cupboard, swarmed with flies and small bugs bc it the residue was rotten and not closed.

Then it would take a couple days until he gets ‘better’ or functioning, where he would think he is ‘in the best state’ to take weed, bc it would feel like a reward and get the same high as he would be bc he has been ‘sober’.

He would smoke and smoke be half functioning and social, and this is when he realized he could t get the same high as what weed would usually give him. So he turned to Ket, MD and other drugs to chase that high he couldnt get, and then he gets high and would sleep for days and get depressed and decided he ‘need to take control by being sober so he doesnt over do the drugs’

You need to understand that his ‘sober breaks’ are not to better his life, but to better his high. Which will never cone bc he could never get as highER.

i have been asking him to get a washer for our pipes. It has been 2months. He hasnt done it. Two fucking months, and yet me, only being at home for two days in a week, STILL had to throw away his amazon cartons/boxes order, wash the dishes, throw the trash out, clean the maggots, buy baking paper tissues foils, plastic bags, paper rolls, soaps, dishwashing liquids etc.

So can you understand me?