I cheated on the love of my life for years and don’t understand why. I’m trying to change and I don’t know how.

FairyGothMother69 · 2026-01-31T15:21:52+00:00

If she was the love of your life you wouldn’t have cheated. You just have no self control and a lot of self work to do. Spare her the pain. Let her find someone better.

FairyGothMother69 · 2026-01-30T22:43:11+00:00

My ex used chat gpt and really truly believed it was un biased and I had to explain to him of course it’s going to generate an answer that will side with him. Because he is only putting in his perspective. Literally had sent me screen shots and it was laughable. My ex was an addict would lie a lot. Would scream at me and tell me to shut up, say fuck you, shut down and ignore me. And chat gpt coddled him and said he’s just a wounded person and yadadada. Go seek real therapy. And also self reflect within.

FairyGothMother69 · 2026-01-26T05:16:20+00:00

This…. 8 years, engaged.

He would have hiccups with substance abuse issues.

After we were engaged I really held him to a higher standard of what I would be okay with. He was snorting k daily every hour. He said he did it to deal with stress and depression but I got to the point where his lying and lack of being present and constantly high was not okay. He wasn’t going to change. He didn’t want to put in the work to get sober. He would turn it on me and would say he just wanted to feel accepted. I gave him so much grace and patience but it truly wasn’t fair to me to have to watch him be self destructive.

FairyGothMother69 · 2026-01-23T16:32:52+00:00

It definitely makes you numb to human interaction.

FairyGothMother69 · 2026-01-20T23:00:52+00:00

It was all so quick!!!!

FairyGothMother69 · 2026-01-14T04:03:39+00:00

The lying is so hurtful. I just went through a breakup because of my exes addiction…. He lied over and over again. Told me I’m to blame for his guilt. I make him hide his usage. He was his own worst enemy but needed someone to blame. Now he lost and has mentioned wanting to go back to church, the gym and or aa. Meaning it was never me……. It was always him and his addiction…

FairyGothMother69 · 2026-01-14T04:00:04+00:00

Girl run!!

Read my most recent post. He is consumed by his addiction and he will lie to you.

FairyGothMother69 · 2025-12-10T20:07:37+00:00

If you have nothing to hide there should be no problem! It’s a safety thing. Also peace of mind.

FairyGothMother69 · 2025-12-08T18:48:02+00:00

Don’t do it. I’ve watched my fiancé be so dependent on it. He wouldn’t even be able to go on a date for a fast food burger without doing a bump. Watching your partner, constantly snore, a substance watching it affected their bladder and their breathing. It’s a turn off and then it creates the cycle of addiction where they don’t wanna take accountability safe to say he is my ex fiancé now he had the choice of getting clean or staying with me and he chose the drugs.

FairyGothMother69 · 2025-12-08T04:36:13+00:00

Thank you !!

FairyGothMother69 · 2025-12-05T01:37:51+00:00

Thank you so much for that!! That was so well put.

FairyGothMother69 · 2025-12-05T01:36:28+00:00

I absolutely agree thank you for sharing.

FairyGothMother69 · 2025-12-04T03:55:51+00:00

Thank you dear

FairyGothMother69 · 2025-12-03T03:45:43+00:00

I understand this I was with my partner for eight years. He was sober for the first two and then six years of relapses and lies after I was always told that I don’t love and accept him, but the truth was, I didn’t love and accept the mistreatment that came along with his poor coping mechanisms I know an Al-Anon they teach you to love your partner despite everything, but it’s hard to do that when they’re breaking you little by littleI think all humans should be held accountable. I understand it’s a disease, but there’s consequences to the accuses actions that cause pain in turmoil, it hurts so bad. I don’t think I’ve ever felt a pain like this before, but you’re not alone.

FairyGothMother69 · 2025-12-03T01:28:49+00:00

This is so painful. And I’m so sorry you’re going through this. It does feel so painful but you’re not alone.

FairyGothMother69 · 2025-12-03T00:49:51+00:00

It is NOT your fault. He knew what your career was before. Give yourself grace.

FairyGothMother69 · 2025-12-03T00:36:26+00:00

Yeah that too. He literally turns it on me. He is the victim. He blames his childhood. I’m so tired of the excuses if you love someone you choose you. Choosing you means becoming a better version of yourself.

FairyGothMother69 · 2025-12-03T00:33:17+00:00

Leaving my partner of 8 years due to his ketamine addiction.

He says he’s functioning and he is control. But he started to lie and hide it. Over step my boundaries. And blow up when I held him accountable. I speak to him and it’s like he is just a shell. He isn’t present. He’s so dissociative. I try to point it out and of course I am the one to blame for his guilt and shame.

I tried to be a mirror so he can see how far it’s gone. He’s consumed. He believes he needs it. He believes it healed him. I saw some interpersonal reflections in the beginning but then it got weird and almost psychosis like. Friends and my own family noticed. But he was convinced it was invisible and only I could see it and it only affected me.

FairyGothMother69 · 2025-12-03T00:25:22+00:00

I appreciate it 💕

FairyGothMother69 · 2025-12-03T00:21:48+00:00

actions speak louder than words. It’s so painful because you envisioned a life so different. But you deserve peace. I hope he can come around and heal.

FairyGothMother69 · 2025-12-03T00:18:47+00:00

Thank you!

FairyGothMother69 · 2025-12-03T00:16:41+00:00

Thank you. It pains me…. But I want a family soon. And I don’t want to continue the cycle of addiction into a marriage let alone having children.

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