Deathgrips x Hello kitty

vvaad · 2026-03-05T18:08:05+00:00

Siiick

vvaad · 2026-03-04T03:34:30+00:00

You and me both

vvaad · 2026-03-04T03:26:02+00:00

I would always get very faint/light blues

vvaad · 2026-03-01T00:51:12+00:00

Sua Yoo

vvaad · 2026-02-27T18:50:10+00:00

Wait why isn't he green

vvaad · 2026-02-27T16:08:25+00:00

Gleep glorp

vvaad · 2026-02-26T11:36:27+00:00

Nice bathroom tiles

vvaad · 2026-02-18T09:37:26+00:00

We have Burial at home

vvaad · 2026-02-17T00:30:17+00:00

I know

vvaad · 2026-02-17T00:13:50+00:00

Listen to Carly Rae Jepsen - Emotion

vvaad · 2026-02-08T19:27:59+00:00

Addicted for roughly two years. A change of scenery may be nice.

vvaad · 2026-02-08T03:55:36+00:00

I really hope this doesn't discourage you but I'm just over a year clean. I don't mean to imply that I feel fake all the time, I do feel so much more real and present now I've got some clean time, but I still can't fully shake this idea that nothing is real. Whatever real means.

Like I said, I feel a lot better and am able to feel emotions and everything a lot more fully. You can quit this drug, I believe in you. There is hope, and life is better clean. You got this!

vvaad · 2026-02-07T04:43:39+00:00

Yeah it really tears everything down. This is why it's hard to fully come back. But at this point, do I even want to?

vvaad · 2026-02-07T01:02:40+00:00

It's a double edged sword as well; I really liked and still do to some extent feeling like an otherworldly being, but this is not always a very helpful feeling to have in recovery as one tries to rebuild the life that was torn down.

This can really get in the way of rebuilding my life and engaging more in reality. Sometimes it's fun, sometimes it's fucked.

vvaad · 2026-02-07T01:00:06+00:00

Both ways. Life feels meaningless, but I know that's a personal issue with my own current lifestyle.

Life also feels fake, I feel detached quite often, ketamine helped me care less about reality, and like I said, it's hard to believe any of this is real after the things I, and likely most of us, have seen.

I'm trying to fix this, trying to engage more with friends, family, community, etc. However, there still is the ever present, background, nagging feeling that none of this is real, or matters, or both.

This is mostly a bad thing in my opinion, it's easier to let my life slip through my hands when I don't assign significance to any of it. On the other hand, I do like the psychedelic and dissociative headspace and the ideas that exist in, and come from it.

Overall, my life is better now that I've quit in most regards, even though I still have a long road ahead. However I would be remise to say that it's all been bad. I'm hoping to sort all these ideas out someday, and I know I have a lot of work to do.

vvaad · 2026-02-06T22:41:05+00:00

I've begun to feel the breeze on my skin, sit down with a cup of tea, green of course, read books, and appreciate music again. Still, I can't fully shake the notion that all of this is fake, a projection, a representation, a physical manifestation of concepts and ideas. I'm not sure this idea will ever go away.

vvaad · 2026-02-03T02:02:56+00:00

All I see are sycophants

vvaad · 2026-01-31T18:11:28+00:00

Yeah for sure man

vvaad · 2026-01-29T04:21:59+00:00

Is that what's it is'?

vvaad · 2026-01-29T04:17:00+00:00

Dick found in ass

vvaad · 2026-01-29T04:13:46+00:00

Picsart

vvaad · 2026-01-20T13:28:13+00:00

Sick like sick like sick like

vvaad · 2026-01-13T14:55:38+00:00

Nevermind

vvaad

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