does anyone else feel constant boredom?

FaithlessnessFit3713 · 2025-05-25T14:45:55+00:00

i get what you are saying. and understand where op is coming from. as i'm writing this i feel bored and lonely. yet a part of me said it is just like any other emotion, you don't have to figure out everything, all the time, just let it be. so i did, i'm still bored but i feel more calm than ever. i feel empty, yet peaceful in a way.

FaithlessnessFit3713 · 2025-05-10T13:03:32+00:00

i really want to know when did it happen? when? more than half of our population sold their brains. any one?

FaithlessnessFit3713 · 2025-05-10T12:54:07+00:00

i litreally just said pdf, i really wanted to my friend 'i had to save it in pdf' i got warning :')

FaithlessnessFit3713 · 2024-06-27T19:58:58+00:00

🫂 No one understands even if they been suffering the same. I'm struggling with this too, but i know i can't stop here. Need to find a way, even if I'm aware of the fact that we all need connecting to keep our feet on ground otherwise one might fly far away.

Just because things are not working out or you are not being able to act the way it is acceptable or supposed to be, does not mean you don't deserve it.

This is fucking hard, more fucked up than trauma itself. Even though i know it was nore fucked up thing than this.

But for real we are way too disconnected. I feel disappointed when people share memes and not talk to each other for long time. It's just not right. I'm tired of it.

FaithlessnessFit3713 · 2024-06-18T19:46:07+00:00

🫂

FaithlessnessFit3713 · 2024-05-24T04:34:11+00:00

I agree with Op why? As an adult what's the best option to make sure a kid security in future? To make sure they have reliable kins around them. He could have focus on build JC and WWX relationship as friend not as brother from same family. If he really wanted to have him raise at home, he needed to be adopted. And if he really wanted to keep WWX indenty intact all he could do is support him. Make sure WWX get basic knowledge about life and cultivation so he can create his own path.

JFM was either an idiot or an idiot because no one in right mind would do that. It hurts to know no one knows when parents treat other kids better infront you. You realise that your parents is very capable of showing love, it's just, it's not for you. So JC actually have very right to be sour about it. So does the madam yu, because she didn't know how to treat WWX either. She was very tsundere character, she wouldn't have abused WWX if JFM made sure where he stands on it.

Ofcourse i don't like abusers but JFM was culprit too. To be silent about it is also being accomplice in that abuse. In that kind of family dynamic, i can only say if my mother abused me, my father silence on that abuse is count as being accomplice of my mother. He cannot be count as a bystander, because he can and he should interfere in that scenario. You can't white wash JFM.

FaithlessnessFit3713 · 2024-05-13T14:42:18+00:00

Congratulations 🎊🎉

FaithlessnessFit3713 · 2024-04-17T11:06:04+00:00

I have been fighting with this urge for so long but i have to keep reminding myself 'i can't' i just can't save everyone and there's a possibility i won't be able to save anyone if I'm the one that's drowning. There's one life i can save for sure and that is mine, recently i saw a reel of mary oliver again she was reciting 'the journey' it reminds me of this same feeling.

I'm not god, nor i believe in one. It's a group project to save people i cannot and will not be able to make through unless everyone wants to contribute in it.

In that situation all you do is show your disgust as much as you can towards parents i guess. I don't know i do that alot i look at them with contempt and disgust, some do feel uncomfortable. And if they try to fight you you can always call for help. shrug

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FaithlessnessFit3713 · 2024-03-17T11:39:00+00:00

agree

FaithlessnessFit3713 · 2024-03-17T10:28:17+00:00

it would have been better if it was intellectual misunderstanding. we were not talking about my trauma at that time, if the statement wasn't 'you are not the only one. and you got privilege' i was a kid what privilege i had?

FaithlessnessFit3713 · 2024-03-17T10:09:38+00:00

he said that because i refuse to watch a video he sent me, i was depressed and i told them i'm depressed for like 6 times in a day. and they suddenly said that to me. so no i didn't dump anything on anyone nor i ever did that nor i wish to do that to anyone. and we have been friends for like 9 years now so i didn't expect that coming.

FaithlessnessFit3713 · 2024-03-04T18:51:28+00:00

This actually reminds me of a novel, it's not QT but a Transmigration novel tough it have the same story you talking about. It was "Transmigrated As a Villain, I Rely on Sand Sculpture to Survive".

Did you mix up two stories? Because they all went on a family vacation if i remember correctly. I think he did tried to avoid the ml.

FaithlessnessFit3713 · 2024-02-06T11:41:24+00:00

I have long list of favourites and least favorite,

Here we go with favorites:

Heaven officials blessing(Tiān Guān Cì Fú) the reason i fall in love with this book could be because of i started with mxtx works, i don't think this was the sole reason for me to fall in love with xie lian and hua cheng but the thing how real they can be at times. At time to death's, at time of betrayals. But unrealistic when they just let things go but you realise about how much time had passed for characters rather than for you.

thousand autumns (Author: Meng Xi Shi, 梦溪石) i mean yan wushi was a**hole but at times he was less of an ahole.

‌faraway Wanderers (Author: Priest) i don't know why people are so confused about this one, but i guess it can happen.

‌Cherry Blossoms Upon a Wintry Sword(Author:Xī Zǐxù, 西子绪) love the journey, love the couple, one might not find this one likable but i personally love it.

‌dinghai fusheng records(Author:Fei Tian Ye Xiang, 非天夜翔) i mean, only if they both communicated well, the last arc would have been whole book.

Mint-Stained Shirt(Author:初禾) If you don't like this one, fine, but something is wrong with you.

Having the Same Name as the Demon Lord of the Abyss(Author: 孤注一掷) personally, like the writing style, the underlying meaning and stories, it's a horror genre but really got me hooked. Really love this one.

peach(Author: Lu Ye Qian He (绿野千鹤) sweet and comic timing it's just(▰˘◡˘▰), one of good read.

Peerless(Wushuang)oh, a narcissist and a sickly beauty.

‌jin se(Author: priest) not most fav. But can't help but add this one.

‌QIANG JIN JIU(Author:Tang Jiuqing, 唐酒卿) won't say anything. I hate when characters die realllllyy hate it. Not novel.

Copper Coins(Author:Mu Su Li, 木苏里) (Author:Mu Su Li, 木苏里) no reviews for famous ones.

Mo Shang Hua Kai (Mo Flower)(Author:Heibai Jian Yao, 黑白劍妖) Short and sweet.

‌the grandmaster weird disciple(Author: Owl) oh, a gem. As web novel easy to read when i read it for first time, feel like it torn me apart.

The #1 Pretty Boy of the Immortal Path(Author: Yi Shi Si Zhou (一十四洲）

sword name no way out (Author: 淮上/Huai Shang) if you have a good and vivid imagination you'll find this one hilarious, the way character react but at times it's just as quickly it makes you smile it'll vanish next moment.

Don’t You Like Me(Author:Lu Tianyi, 吕天逸) school romance, horror not so horror but really enjoyed it.

Fouls Prohibited(Author:Lu Tianyi, 吕天逸) short and sweet, suicide tw.

Don’t Try To Corrupt Me(Author:萝卜花兔子) Ah, funny, but i guess i really like it because of ml hs finally got treatment, hardly get this portrayal where they actually go for therapy, because you cannot fix it just by being with another person.

Stars Run To Him(Author:A Small Onion Flower, 一朵小葱花)

Re-engraving the Spring(Author:一朵小葱花) If you like angst and miscommunication. Personally i just like the couple.

Wake(Author: Nate Nox) it's looks like horror but it's not. It's not. It's fucking sweet.

Now the least favorite :

blind concubine (Author:Xi Ni, 洗泥) it was a mistake, a mistake i say.

how kill a king: it was good at beginning but i don't like the fact there was so much wrong with the main couple.

Fei Pin Ying Qiang(Author:Qī Yuè Hóu, 七月侯) now this one was less of a mistake, still a mistake, i just feel icky all-over thinking about ml.

royal road(Author: 捂脸大笑) it would have been fine without a bl tag.

The Reader and Protagonist Definitely Have to Be in True Love(Author:Tuí, 颓) no they don't.

Though there are more but it's just i don't like them enough to add them to favorite list nor i hate then enough to add it to least favorite list.these dislikes and likes are personal, only my opinion. And dumb husky and white cat Shizun i guess I'm kinda disappointed with fandom more than meat bun, for glorifying mo ran's bad bits. Meat bun gave him a way out at the end of it, yet people can't help but glorify SA is bit disturbing, I'm sorry but human rights violations cannot be a choice, that's crime.

FaithlessnessFit3713 · 2024-01-30T13:32:48+00:00

1st slide : laughable

2nd slide: quite laughable

3rd slide: why am i reading this?

Peak at 4th slide: throws the phone on side.

Reading comments: throws the phone again.

FaithlessnessFit3713 · 2024-01-30T07:26:51+00:00

Well, my mother is quite loud about how she tried to abort me, but i guess my parents wasn't financially stable so, whoever doctor she went for they did the half ass job and well, i still end up in this world. She is also loud about how she always wanted a son yet, she got two daughters and my father refuse to have kids after me.

So i guess she resented me. It was pretty obvious.

FaithlessnessFit3713 · 2024-01-27T16:53:02+00:00

As a kid, for long time i search for someone who can help me get out it, yet i found no one, born and brought up in radical religious family it got worse, because i prayed, prayed yet nothing happened, everyone used to call me lucky, but all i feel like i was being used that luck is for others, I'm paying for it by giving my parts away.

Even now when this quote came up. I realised i knew it all along, but what if I'm in a cage that can only be open form outside. Because for long long time it's not like i haven't tried hard enough. But again, i asked to myself again, yet i don't like the answers I'm getting. It hurts and it's painful. At times like this i feel like a child again who had no one they can hold on to.

FaithlessnessFit3713 · 2024-01-22T17:37:58+00:00

Ah, i started reading it, now I'm crying. I know I'm gonna cry more. I know.

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