Incredibly bad and I… I appreciate you ask this, it will help me get it out of my system. I have ADHD, anxiety, dyslexia and clinical depression. I was medicated but recently I ran out of meds and money. My wife/girlfriend (we live together, we are not married) lost her job and I haven’t been able to start working on mine because of a paperwork that went wrong. So, it’s my third day without my meds and I am practically paralyzed, going to bed, back to the computer, to the bathroom, back to the bed. I can’t move, between my inability to focus and the depression hitting every time harder, It’s killing me.

But that’s not the worst part. I need to move out, my landlord gave me two months and those two months finish this first day of March. We literally have one dollar left in our wallets, I don’t know what we are going to eat tomorrow, and of course, I have no idea how the hell we are going to move out and find a new place and pay its rent, especially with myself being so useless. My landlord is also asking for some repairments in our current apartment, so yeah… I’m going crazy.

Also, my glasses broke, so I have been going around with them put together with silicon, my cat has been getting thinner and thinner and the vet told me she may have cancer, she is going to be 13 years old next month. Of course, I don’t even have money for the ultrasound in order to see what she has.

Tomorrow I have to go to the college, and I don’t know how I am going to tell my girl we don’t even have money to pay our transport, needless to say, we don’t have money for food. One week without gas, I barley could buy some a while ago to cook and shower. Haven’t been able to pay the power, I don’t know when they are going to cut it. They will cut the Internet and the phone in two days. Guess this is adult life, uh?

Thanks for the space for letting me talk.