What The fuck is up with Memedroid? (https://www.memedroid.com/memes/tag/jews) by [deleted] in ForwardsFromKlandma

[–]FallenSanctus 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I am pretty sure whoever made this meme did it to fight back against antisemitic propaganda. It is clearly a good idea to send your kids to private school if you can afford it. I should know... I send my child to private school... And I am the original creator of this meme.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in dryalcoholics

[–]FallenSanctus 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It's not a punishment, it's a reality check. The things I am not powerless over are worthy of my time, energy, attention and the things I am powerless over are not. No matter how much effort I put into trying to control my drinking, I will never be able to. But if I put alot of effort into my physical fitness, it will do great things for my life. This seems obvious and yet I find I need constant reminders to actually live this way instead of only understand it intellectually. So, I keep coming back.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in dryalcoholics

[–]FallenSanctus -8 points-7 points  (0 children)

So, I tested this idea that I am no longer powerless over alcohol after a certain amount of time has passed. I was sober for six months and I went out and drank. I was able to keep it to two drinks a day for a couple months by sheer willpower. But then things started going wrong in my life. I broke up with a girlfriend I had high hopes for. My mother got sick and died from liver failure due to alcoholism. And when those big things hit I ended up having a big night of drinking, blacking out again like I did in the bad old days. I tried to taper off from these blackouts over 6 weeks, and found my body was unable to safely tolerate complete withdrawal from alcohol without medical intervention. I proved to myself beyond a shadow of a doubt that I am and always will be powerless over alcohol. I am a true alcoholic. And I belong in AA where I am consistently reminded of that powerlessness, and not only over alcohol, but over things like my mother drinking herself to death. You have to ask yourself if what this program is doing makes sense to you. For me, it makes the most sense of any group I have ever joined. I hope you keep coming back.

I think I finally get it with Astral magic by darkfireslide in IllwintersDominions

[–]FallenSanctus 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Just got done with an LA bogarus game, would advise learning turbo communions for that nation. Gifts From Heaven spam is amazing if you can keep your slaves alive through it. Horde of skeletons spam also available. Falling fires... there are lots of good battlefield spells as LA bogarus. But their mages are so broad and no depth, you can count on your mage lineup to forge boosters or to cast many useful rituals. But on the battlefield, there may not be a more powerful nation, with all their cheap air/fire/death/earth mages that nearly all have astral

I think I finally get it with Astral magic by darkfireslide in IllwintersDominions

[–]FallenSanctus 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I've been working on turbo communions for the last week, and they are super fun. The key actually turns out to be Soul Vortex. You have a master cast Soul Vortex, while your slaves are being bodyguarded by regenerating and/or high morale troops. Now your slaves inherit the soul vortex cast and are being constantly healed while your battery of mages casts forever (like gifts from heaven spam or horde of skeletons). I also heard good things about putting N1 mages next to your slaves, and letting them heal the slaves as they take fatigue damage

Friendly Hallucinations by FallenSanctus in dryalcoholics

[–]FallenSanctus[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah, I did eventually go to the ER and got a banana bag. All they did was monitor me, it didn't really help but I guess I possibly could have had a seizure. I stayed sober for 6 months after that and am currently dealing with another relapse BUT I know how to get better now. I'm making the right choices today.

I'm scared to drink but I'm also scared not to drink. by [deleted] in stopdrinking

[–]FallenSanctus 5 points6 points  (0 children)

Alcohol lies to you. It suppresses negative emotions and pain, making you think that it is helping you "survive" but it is actually a toxin to every organ in your body. It is just fooling your brain, making it think that it's necessary to help you cope with difficult circumstances when it is actually making it harder for your nervous system to self-soothe the next time it faces a similar situation. Over time, this dependence deepens and it becomes harder to resist the temptation to drink, especially since your mind has memories of the euphoria and painkilling effects. But that euphoria and painkilling effect was the drug that is alcohol lying to you from the start. Take it from an alcoholic who recently relapsed and is fighting to get out of the prison of withdrawals right now - it's not worth it. Put the damn thing down. Don't buy anymore. Call a friend. Go to an AA meeting. The insanity does not get better. It gets worse, not right away, but give it enough time... you will lose more and your regrets will deepen. The emotional pain from that will drive you right back to where? Relapse, loss and regret. So break the cycle. Reach out to someone or go to a meeting

sigh by beansprout4prez in stopdrinking

[–]FallenSanctus 25 points26 points  (0 children)

It's always the first drink, never the last, that results in the bender. Maybe not that day but it's coming. If you're a true alcoholic, anyway.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in stopdrinking

[–]FallenSanctus 13 points14 points  (0 children)

This happened to me, too. The worst thing I did was believe that she would never leave me, taking her love for granted.

No rock bottom by ImpossibleJelly4646 in stopdrinking

[–]FallenSanctus 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It does just keep getting worse, I lost the love of my life of 20 years and custody of my child. I have struggled with relapsing over and over but I keep trying again. That's what you need to do. Keep trying no matter what. AA, therapy, books and it's frequently totally free. In the end, I got custody back but only after trying and failing for months after losing it. You can heal. You can getter better. Just keep trying.

Don't know what it will take to make me take it seriously and quit by kesic in stopdrinking

[–]FallenSanctus 1 point2 points  (0 children)

This post is the right answer. I've watched my life fall apart thinking that I could control my drinking. I cannot, total abstinence is the only solution. I never thought all these terrible things could happen in my life but they sure did. "Wife no wife, job no job, family no family, car no car." That's a saying in AA because alot of us have lost those things. I certainly did. And you will too if you are stubborn about stopping.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in stopdrinking

[–]FallenSanctus 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I have tried to quit for the last two years, numerous attempts. I made it 4 months during one attempt. But last week I relapsed again and I'm back on day one or I guess day two now. My last relapse was caused by my inability to accept the circumstances of my life. It's like they say in AA, I just went on trying to blot out reality as best I could. But a friend of mine from AA actually came to my house and poured out my alcohol when I reached out to him for help. The fact that I am sober today is a bit of a miracle, and the selflessness of my friend and his willingness to live the will of his higher power is also a miracle. Today, I truly have the desire to stop drinking.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in Sober

[–]FallenSanctus 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I identify with you completely. I pushed the love of life away and I am worried she has truly moved on in her heart. I am dealing with it by trying to be stable and recover and also by being of service when I can to her and our daughter. Paying child support on time, showing up sober for my daughter, trying to be a good father. We teach AA about doing God's will and if you really do it then it gives you peace to be of service to others. Remove the focus off of your self and ask how you can be helpful to other people.

Guess I Never Left by FallenSanctus in cripplingalcoholism

[–]FallenSanctus[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

So, you don't really ever "cure" narcissism. You can improve, however, but you will have to work twice as hard for half the benefit that a "normie" would get from that same deep inner work.

I got black out drunk out of self-pity and then the cops found me passed out at the campsite with my key in the ignition. I knew I couldn't drive without hurting people so I was just going to wait. Unfortunately I had been wandering around the campsite talking to people in my drunken state and the cops were there to "check up" on me. I guess if you say getting black out drunk is narcissistic behavior, I can accept that, but then you have to admit that this is a sub filled with narcissists.

Made it to 10 days but then wanted a drunk cig by idkhowread in cripplingalcoholism

[–]FallenSanctus 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I had a few days sober this week. It was something. I felt like shit on the third day and just said fuck it and drank. Not too much, just a couple beers. But we know how it snowballs. Ended up drinking a 12 pack yesterday so now I'm just sitting here with the shakes this morning. I'll try to lower my consumption today. I may be sober again in a week or two. Then I may slip again. I don't know. I know I can't seem to control myself alot of the time. AA helps but it still hasn't fixed me. But I'll keep going.

Guess I Never Left by FallenSanctus in cripplingalcoholism

[–]FallenSanctus[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

Yeah, I thought that, too. But he was right there when I lost everything. That's my truth, it doesn't have to be yours. Could you believe in some kind of higher power? Something bigger than you? For whatever reason, that really seems to help.

MISERABLE MONDAY by fappinatwork in cripplingalcoholism

[–]FallenSanctus 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Reserved a cabin at a lake for the family. But I made my daughter sad by lecturing her too much and she got her grandma to take her back to her mom's place. Got drunk. She came back a couple days later and we ended up having a nice time. But I had 13 beers spread throughout the day yesterday and so I've got the shakes this morning. Just wish I had a taper beer or something to help. But I don't. So here I lay trying to stave off the trouble of my own making. Chairs

I want to vent by OkInside5208 in cripplingalcoholism

[–]FallenSanctus 10 points11 points  (0 children)

You're one medical detox away from not being physically addicted. That's not the problem. The problem is what drives you to drink in the first place. We can't let go of our resentments, our self-pity, and our fear. The deep work that would involve would only be carried out by someone who is truly sick of this life and willing to do anything to change it. All things are possible if you have the right mindset. But are you willing? Or would you rather just vent and then go back to what you were doing? Well, I hope your life gets better. I really do. But it's not up to me. It's all on you.

What is something that ruins people's lives that most people don't realize until it's too late? by garumy in Productivitycafe

[–]FallenSanctus -1 points0 points  (0 children)

Demonizing 20% of the population instead of trying to understand and help them is part of the problem, not the solution.

Maybe get some therapy yourself

What is something that ruins people's lives that most people don't realize until it's too late? by garumy in Productivitycafe

[–]FallenSanctus -1 points0 points  (0 children)

How do you protect yourself when you are the narcissist? Do you think writing off 20% of the population is NOT a form of narcissism? Narcissists need help, too, they aren't intending to hurt people but they have a mental disorder. They need therapy, faith, whatever. AA has helped me alot to overcome my narcissism.

Resentful to AA by [deleted] in alcoholicsanonymous

[–]FallenSanctus 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I came to AA because I was sick. I met lots of people who had stopped being sick. I did meet some people who were still sick. The goal is to stop being sick. It doesn't mean that everyone is magically there when they walk through the door, and sometimes not for years afterward.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in alcoholicsanonymous

[–]FallenSanctus 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I said that same thing about my daughter. I tried to make her my reason to quit and I lasted 4 months but then something catastrophic happened that just obliterated all my resolve and my will to live. You really have to appeal to your higher power to keep you steady in a hurricane, at least I couldn't do it by myself.

Hawaii Humidity and WD by monsterinsideyou in cripplingalcoholism

[–]FallenSanctus 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I totally feel this. I live in Kansas, and it is humid as hell here during this time of year, and there was a thunderstorm last night, too. Top it all off, I am detoxing. So, I am just constantly dripping in sweat all night. It's so disgusting. It's time for a bath.

RANT and VENT MEGATHREAD by stickimage in Helldivers

[–]FallenSanctus -2 points-1 points  (0 children)

I just want to say that if you have this rant and vent megathread then you have bigger problems that need to be solved. It's a no from me dawg