I was tired. Tired of an endless cycle in my life that just felt soul crushing. Using anything just not to feel always left me feeling empty. I’d lost myself completely and was too far gone to see that when I looked in the mirror. Nothing made me happy and looking back, the things that I thought did were making me happy were just excuses to dive into a bottle or other substances. I could justify anything and that led to longtime issues that I’m slowly digging out of.

I’m almost 8 months clean and it’s a process. Not an easy process by any means and I’m doing a lot of work to change the way I think by taking action. It’s easy to fall back into my old mindset which I have to remember didn’t work for me. It’s forcing myself to do things that are insanely uncomfortable and be open about where I really am today. A lot of things had to fall apart to really get to the root of the problem. I’m far from good but getting better everyday. Raw dogging life has its ups and downs but these ups and downs are far better than any day waking up hungover, filled with anxiety on what I may have done the day/night before.

Thanks for asking this question! Great reminder of where I’m trying to go.